| | Hi guys,
Thanks for the feedback.
I think it may just be due to stress and more importantly due to over thinking. I have noticed that I think and worry too much as reactive pattern. This seems to be my standard response when it comes to approaching problems. Work myself up to worry about an issue so that it builds sufficient "motivation" within me to act on the issue. It's a catch 22, because instead of the stress acting to motivate it demotivates to do anything about the problem I maybe facing at the time and to distract myself with sensory pleasure. Apologies for the rambling psych 101 self diagnosis. But actually, observing this helps me a lot.
I reached this conclusion because I focused on not getting worked up (self talk, imagining consequences of not meeting a deadline) and instead focused on what actions I could and could not do realistically and approached problems with this reasoning. And then went on to act as appropriately as possible.
As such, throughout work today the pain in my forehead was less and sometimes non-existant. It was noticeable at the end of the work day. The more I seem to desire something or work myself up to uselessly worry something the stronger the pain or annoyance at the forehead.
The annoying thing is the more I noticed it, the less the sensations became but then I began to stop noticing less. Meaning if I wanted to continue to be some what actively mindful the more energy I needed to put into it, where as before there was some motivation to look into the causes.
So, no this does not seem to be practiced based, but the old cause and effect pattern of being stressed as an ego reaction geared towards problem solving (which actually solves nothing, but seek sensory distractions instead).
As a background, I do mainly noting mahasi style practice at the moment. |