Robert Scott Johnson:
This one seemed to be the most intense fruition yet, I was taking special care to closely pay attention to the whole experience...
good!
...and towards the end maybe during conformity... right before I entered path, then fruition ...
a technical point - the conformity, change of lineage, and path stages, only happen once per path. so these are not things that repeat. (I'm not really sure why they are mentioned.. i haven't gotten much out of knowing they are there). so when you speak of conformity and path as distinct stages you're in, you're likely thinking of particular stages of Equanimity.
... I felt a twinge of grief that I cannot explain then I think the three doors may have appeared to me as I focused on impermanence and no self. the order in which this stuff happened may be kind of jumbled up in my descriptions cause all these experiences so far have been pretty subtle and vague, and the way the three doors showed themselves was kind of confusing, sort of just three unknown blobs of nothingness that couldn't really identify but they seemed like something noteworthy.
'tis interesting. i recommend doing this more, it's pretty interesting/insight-producing to observe entering a fruition through one of the doors. 3 unknown blobs of nothingness sounds like the impermanence/no-self door?
MCTB:
When the impermanence aspect predominates and is combined with the emptiness aspect, then the whole universe strobes three times quickly with something staring back at us as a minor aspect of that universe, and then it seems that awareness collapses into the space after the third gap, perhaps turning slightly towards the thing that was staring back.
i recommend reading
the three doors chapter again. maybe focus on the no-self/emptiness and the suffering characteristics, as i find that one to be the most interesting/insight-producing.