Gloria Calabria:
There is definitely increasing insight when the attention is there at the place some call the third eye. Siddhis arise and siddhis go...i try not to get too excited anymore when they arise and just accept they arise for a pragmatic reason, to serve and then let go. Can intuitively feel and sense the other's mindset when face to face increasingly. And i do ask this Presence to show me how to serve and not get puffed up by the siddhis that arise and then go.
Well, now. Perhaps we are not talking on the same page. One of the first things you need to understand is that there is no "Presence" other than what is fabricated by the mind. The "Presence" you "perceive" is just the clarity of the mind observing a phenomenon (in this case, the situation you've been writing about).
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i use the term 'Presence' because there is a strong feeling of awareness that is more than little 'i'. Also...previously there was an experience in which the bottom dropped out. i was at work doing work at the desk and the mantram given by Guru started up. Mind followed mantram and then there was a dropping out sensation. From the sensation came no more I...there was just Oneness...yet there were also forms. A coworker came to the desk and 'i' began laughing telling her there was no 'me' and there is no 'you'. Eventually the i returned.
Previous to this another dropping out experience and temporarily loss of I took place in an airport after saying goodbye to a different Guru...same sequence of mantram starting up and mind following the mantram. i existed in a state of no sense of separate I-ness for 3 days. There was impartial love for all including the daughters...nothing was special or preferred but love was the Ocean in which all existed.
Since then when ongoing mantram takes place there is a sense of Presence.
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Gloria Calabria:
The person i was referencing and i no longer speak but what was puzzling me was the why of the experience as in why 'him' and not some other. Increasingly though this seems to be one of those questions that will either get addressed down the road or never. My attachment to the answer i have realized is just another obstacle to be let go of and your responses helped me see this so thank you.
Not sure how to change the status to resolved but if you or someone could teach me how to do that...that would be cool.
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No what i meant was how to change the status in this post from 'Awaiting Answer' to 'Resolved'.
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The way you "change the status" of the situation is to recognize that the phenomenon you are observing is
not what you are perceiving it to be. This is a perfect practical example of how to rid oneself of anger (or whatever unwholesome emotion or feeling that one is experiencing). The anger that you experienced was the result of a difference between two personalities -- between to "I"s (or however one indicates a plural "I"), between two egos. As long as you acknowledge yourself
to yourself as an ego, there will be the "one who feels and emotes" behind that ego. Seeing the five aggregates as impermanent (
anicca), unsatisfactory (
dukkha) and not self or without self nature (
anatta), frees one from the mistaken identity that is the root cause of dissatisfaction (
dukkha). This is why the Buddha taught about these three characteristics of existence and made their study and contemplation a centerpiece of his Dhamma.
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Sometimes anger arises but there is also a Witness and the anger, at times...not always but at times becomes a kind of tool or useful weapon...skillful means. The intention is not to do harm but to keep the other from doing harm. Anger isn't always inappropriately expressed i am learning. But yes...when it is reactive and unconscious then that is a different matter. i have experienced what maybe a psychic connection with this person previously mentioned but since there is a determination to surrender to what Is...to reality as suchness i am focusing on simply staying present. There are longer periods now it seems of expanded consciousness and awareness in the present. And i watch this mind and this body for signs of clutching and clinging. Nonjudgemental witnessing and labeling, "oh ego"..."oh contraction"..."oh attachment". The mantram helps alot.
Thank you for your input.
Namaste,
g
P.S. i will try to get ahold of the creator of this forum's book(s)...i would like to learn more about this particular path. My background has been in Surat Shabd Yoga as well as Vajrayana and Kundalini shaktipat initiation and practice. Kind of all over the place but recently focusing on the Surat Shabd Yoga practices as shared by the Guru.
The Buddha taught that "all
sankharas (volitional mental formations) are impermanent; all
sankharas are unsatisfactory; and all
dhammas (phenomena) are without self." Once you realize these truths, while the emotions may still exist and arise from time to time, they will not be laden with the same power to overwhelm one. Replace ignorance (about yourself) with insight and wisdom into the true characteristics of reality. This is the way to end
dukkha. "Seeing things as they actually are" brings peace (and eventually contentment).
Do not burden yourself with other people's problems. You have enough of your own to resolve. Let go and let live. And focus upon mindfulness of these three characteristics in every thing you do until you recognize them as the reality that they are. And in that recognition lies your deliverance (and liberation).