racecar backwards:
Been through a 3 year dark night, various insights, ecstasies, third eye opened, electric nadi's, Awareness dropping vertically into an Ocean of Oneness (Atma Nadi) for a few brief seconds....
But this one is different. Been doing hardcore practice the last week or so. Anapanasati, Mindfulness, awareness aware of itself, etc...
Well the last few days, it's like getting hit with an open spacious deja vu like quality. It's usually when I'm doing something at work, or resting, or catching some brief news on the tube w/ breakfast, or particularly between the in-breath and out-breath ..
Anyway, best thing I can describe it as, is a very Spacious unknowingness, opening with Deja vu quality to it. I can't in anyway "know" what that is because it is ineffable, but it is definite and happening more and more. Can't put my finger on what you guys here on the boards would consider this, considering I'm new and have spent the last week reading a bunch of threads here, playing catch up on acronyms and over all definitions you guys use here.
Any takers on this one?
oops ......Also ...forgot to add, 'I' don't have any control over this ...it just sort of comes and goes as it pleases.
It sounds like you're just stringing words together.