Trilan Gulbe:
Problem:
Before I started meditation, I had been contemplating how my attachment and cravings lead to disappointment and suffering on a daily basis for about a 6 months(this is because I was dealing with an addiction).
Hi Trilan,
Some of what you describe could belong to the territory of post acute withdrawl syndrome. Of course, this is a very long distance guess, having no idea about your substance abuse history, but the symptoms you describe line up with that as a possibility. PAWS can last from 6 months to a year after the fact.
Sounds like you have a strong practice. Being disciplined enough to sit two hours a day is a great indicator of your chances to stabilize and balance out.
Good luck!