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Yeh sensitivity isn't good; I don't like it at all. I don't cling to it. I want to know how to close it off. I can feel people's emotions and the whole thing is too open. When I walk into a room, everyone reacts to it. Sometimes people actually swing their heads around, all in unison. I used to think this was cool in the past, but I actually think it's a big problem nowadays and desperately want to change it.
I have read about boundaries in psychology, but there's not enough there. All I have found is that my boundaries are probably incomplete or poorly formed and need strengthening, but I don't know how.
Need more input please. Desperate for help.
What I said was sensitivity AND not being able to deal with it well is not ideal. However, the only way I know to learn to deal better is to push through to the other side. I don't know any way to turn it off. The only ways that worked for me was me learning my own strength and finding my own weaknesses and working on them. If someone is angry around me, why must that upset me? Once I learned the many answers to that question well, then now it doesn't upset me much. Those instabilities used to harmonize with my own instabilities. The trick was for me to become more stable, not to hide from everyone else and their influences. So over time, I've stabilized a lot of my previous weak spots. So any 'attack' by outside forces just does not hurt as much anymore. My mood is more stable so instability around me has less effect. I still sense it the same and I'd say over time, I sense outside instability and emotion even more, in part I think because it bothers me less so I don't bother to try to block consciousness over it as much, it's just that I no longer feel it can so easily destabilize me as well.
A big start was for me to stop thinking like a victim, accept that deep inside I had more strength and would NOT decide to be a victim, and then I started looking for that strength and any thoughts that were counterproductive to that process. Of course, that kind of process is always ongoing and does not happen in 5 seconds, but the results have been much better than back in the past when I walked around thinking of myself as victim. I realized to think like a victim is to BE a victim. So instead I decided to think like a person that is learning and making progress and slowly getting stronger and stronger. Because how you think makes up your identity, so if you want to change, then you need to change your thoughts. You can't just keep doing the same thing as ever and then expect different results anyway. And of course, complaining doesn't work. And good luck controlling others, that's like trying to herd cats. The only thing left then is to work on yourself. IMO, you'll always be sensitive, but what you don't always have to be is upset by it.