| | Author: sean2.0 Forum: Daniel's Practice Hut
A couple of weeks ago my daily practice shifted a bit from an uncomfortable, intermittent twitchy/buzzy vibration state to a fast and steady vibration. The practice is almost exclusively mindfulness, noting as fast as I can at this point. Sometimes the body sensations are disparate and spread out -- pressure of the seat, visual field, skin sensation of the shirt touching the front of the left shoulder -- you get the picture. Farther into the sitting, the body awareness usually shifts to minute sensations that are usually outside of awareness -- the individual hair follicles of the left eyebrow or the mustache around the mouth. The vibration tends to be constant through these phases, though sometimes the breath seems to move with the vibration. The experience feels quite concentrated, and sometimes is accompanied by a mild euphoria and kundalini surges of energy along the spine.
At any rate, for the past several sessions (7-10), that basic experience arises, sustains for a time, and then seems to subside into a kind of quiet -- the body goes quiet, the vibration stops, the kundalini experiences subside. It's a bit like everything drops away to take a rest from the intensity of the practice. At first, the quiet period felt like "coming out" of the meditative state, and sometimes the meditation practice would end without the first experience reoccurring. Now, though, it seems that the vibratory mindfulness state alternates with the quiet period.
My question is this: though I may be mistaken, I have a sense that some part of my mind is either generating or subtly maintaining the vibratory "active" meditation state, and it feels a bit like relaxing when the state subsides. To move forward, is it a matter of maintaining, to the extent possible, the active and vibratory state, or is it simply watching the sequence of events and not getting too interested in the end of the story, or is it something else entirely? |