Ahh yes I just listened to the 2nd part of the talks again good stuff. I think I'm back on track now

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Here are some random notes I've made over the last week and some quotes I find useful.
Negative/adverse affect
Irritability
Tightness in solar plexus area
tensing of breathing
increased or decreased breathing
- decrease breathing along with tension in mid torso
- rapid breathing with jitteriness, anxiety
Wordlessly saying "I want"
Wordlessness is a result of not knowing
When I "say it's name" it dissipates in the light of awareness.
Pure intent reminds me of the wording of the sixth step of alcoholics anonymous, " became entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character" it's the "entirely ready" part where I find the similarity.
proprioception is a term that Thanisarro Bhikkhu uses in his talks referring to the sense of the breath energy in the body. This same idea is expressed in Kenneth folk instructions in direct mode of perception grounding technique. And Richard uses the term on the AFT site talking about apperception as fallows,
RESPONDENT: You always are covering behind the word ‘apperceptively aware’.
RICHARD: If that is how you see what I report then apparently nothing I can further say is going to alter that conclusion.
RESPONDENT: How you know you are alive?
RICHARD: Sensately ... ... I have written about this to you twice before. Here is an excerpt:
• : ‘... if one were to close the eyes one will find there is a sensing, or perception, of being oriented in space (of space all around including behind the body) ... and this has as much to do with balance, acceleration and/or rotation in space, orientation in a gravity field (if there be one) as it has to do with the proprioceptive senses proper in the muscles, tendons, and joints.
The proprioceptive senses are part of the somatic sensory system (somaesthesis/ somaesthesia) which is the faculty of bodily perception (sensory systems associated with the body) and includes skin senses (cutaneous receptors for hot/cold, pressure, physical pleasure/pain, for example) and the internal organs sensors (cardiovascular or circulatory receptors for blood pressure, heart rate, and carbon dioxide and digestive tract receptors for hunger and thirst, for instance) as well as the equilibrium sense, or sense of balance, already mentioned.
Thus proprioception is the ability to sense the position and location and orientation and movement of the body, and its parts, because of the proprioceptors in the muscles, tendons, and joint capsules (in combination with the sense of balance, acceleration and/or rotation in space, and orientation in a gravitational field, of the inner ear or vestibular organ).
In other words: the sense of being here, in space, as a body is not just because of sight (visual perception), sound (auditory perception), touch (cutaneous perception), smell (olfactory perception), and taste (gustatory perception). (Re: For Richard; May 31, 2003).
RESPONDENT: Do you have any other mean except thought to know it?
RICHARD: Yes ... you will see, upon re-reading my response (above), that I clearly say the sense of being here, in space, as a body is not just because of sight (visual perception), sound (auditory perception), touch (cutaneous perception), smell (olfactory perception), and taste (gustatory perception) but proprioception as well.
And sensory perception is what consciousness is at its most basic ... perception means consciousness (aka awareness). Vis.:
• ‘perception: the state of being or process of becoming aware or conscious of a thing, spec. through any of the senses; the faculty of perceiving; an ability to perceive; [synonyms: (...) awareness, consciousness]. (Oxford Dictionary).
And consciousness means sentience. Vis.:
• ‘sentience: the condition or quality of being sentient; consciousness, susceptibility to sensation’. (Oxford Dictionary).
And sentience is direct, immediate (sensate perception is primary; affective perception is secondary; cognitive perception is tertiary).
This apperceptiveness is not new to my practice. And specifically the proprioception Is almost a daily used tool. I guess I'm just saying I feel like I'm on the right track here.
Also Tarin talked about tracing back feelings which I would like a little bit more input on if anyone would care to comment on that.
Thanks - Ross