Bronson Michael Miller:
I want to know if I've already started but I can't tell. I don't really notice the different vibrations in different stages. The only thing I notice is that sometimes I'm really energetic and outgoing for a while and then I have a bunch of crazy astrol projection type lucid dreams and then I'm depressed for long period of time but maybe that's just how I am?
Greetings Michael
I cannot give you any advice regarding cycles, A&P and any other terminology used here on the site, but I can however give you a personal advice regarding your last sentence: "Maybe that's just how I am".
I humbly and whole-heartedly recommend you to inquiry into this idea, the idea that you are a something, and that something causes lucid dreams and periods with high energy followed by depressions.
Another suggestion could be that complex patterns of evaluations, of thoughts, of expectations and defence mechanisms aquired and formed through birth and growing up in a world not always loving and friendly, has something to do with these periods of ups and downs in your life. That they are nestled in this seemingly causal web of why things happen.
I also would say that the quote about "best not to begin" only holds true if your world view is latched onto the idea that life is a race towards something at a certain velocity and once you enter this race this idea of yourself, have to get going on the race until the end. This something could be an experience, a distinct way of experiencing the world, a different perception, etc.
I shared similar worries regarding the "best not to begin" after having experienced certain phases of dissolution, of disenchantment and in hindsight these worries for me were emotions of fear latched onto an idea, nothing more or less and as the fear naturally dissolved, so did the idea.
Wish you all the best on your path, whatever it might take you :-)