| | Dear Yabaxoule,
As I read your posts, I get the sense that you are saying that you have been hanging out in anagami-like territory and by your assessment are wrestling with the final split territory. If in fact this is where you are, then I can tell you this is slippery territory, complex, not straightforward, difficult for even the best, most obsessive mappers to map in real-time, and notoriously seductive in terms of the amazing twists and turns the mind can undergo in an attempt to convince one that one has finished the thing. Openings can be profound, the sense of everything being simply luminous, or empty, or just where it is, or centerless, etc. can be so nearly complete so often and then fade that one can be fooled again and again.
All that said, here goes my best answer to your question, realizing that even seemingly straightforward language such as "doer", "separate doer", "watcher", "duality" and the like may have subtle differences in personal meaning that may not quite line up even between the most careful and communicative of friends. My answer is this: the sense of will, effort, intention, doing, observation, etc. are all empty, natural, causal, transient, ordinary, and thus, given this, the problem is not with the sense of effort or will or doing, but the fundamental way those are perceived in real-time as one's baseline. The cycles do add complexity to interpreting this, and yet, at the end, even in the strangest, most difficult place in the cycles, when one's attention turns to the perceptual asking of the final question that you ask, the answer is directly obvious like color and space are obvious, "Ah, the knot is untied, the center is seen through, the truth is clear, subject and object are seen through, this field of transient manifestation is aware where it is, this answer is final and satisfying in its simplicity and completeness, there is nothing beyond this." |