| | All that complexity is the point! Nice job.
Most people get frustrated when they find so much sensate chaos, but insight practice is about seeing that vague, amorphous, pulsing, vibrating, twitchy chaos. Don't worry about the vibrational speeds, just pay attention to what is there with as few expectations as possible, except to realize that the Three Characteristics: impermanence (it coming and going in each little spot), suffering (some odd tension in the thing related to observation itself), and no-self (that it is too ephemeral to be a consistent self AND it is happening on its own in a causal, natural fashion), are key aspects of the thing to pay attention to. In fact, you don't know what is mind and body really, just so long as you can stay with these aspects of the thing, as they are the keys to deep insights.
Attention doesn't even need to be that focused from a certain point of view, just consistent, meaning it is there second after second, and in fact the wider you can get the thing and still stay with this activity of sensate chaos and its Three Characteristics, the better, as when you can perceive this of the whole field simultaneously, that'll do it. It typically takes some time to allow the mind to get to that point, but it is worth knowing that this is what you are working towards. |