Rin Maryu:
Nothing. My mind is still putting the observer into existence somewhere between the eyes. It's a lifelong habit, I think it will be difficult to change it. It's funny - when I look I can't find the observer, but my mind is still creating the observer. It's like I'm living in a contradictory state.
Also, there's a subtle sense of self that comes from the body sensations - a feeling of self that is positioned somewhere in space. It would be interesting to find a state where there is no body sensations - I could then see the difference.
Why give up, Rin? It was good of you to step forward and volunteer, and it would be better to get to freedom. Continue practice and also doing the looking. It's frustrating to do this, but the sense of frustration could mean freedom from self is close. And there is no need for using one method over or the other... whatever works. Do both!
See what's written here in that quoted text?
The "I" was subtley tripped over on the way to the looking.
That is actually what is habit. The "I" or self is lifelong habit. There is no mind. There is no putting. These are thoughts arising without a controller. See how it is not controlled? Did the You command it to appear? So even this "struggle" does not exist. It too is more thought, a loop.
See the mechanism. Look at the thought rather than into it. Observe it arising. Try this:
Thought: "I can't see the no self."
Thought: "Purple pigs fly by flapping orange wings."
Both are thought, equally, and share the same mechanism. Thought is real. The content of thought is not. Additional thought follows each, forming thought judgements of "true" or "not true", based on more thought. Take a step back and look at that mechanism. None of is has a controller. If there was one, this thread would be finished.
"When I look I can't find the observer, but my mind is still creating the observer." - Thought cannot find thought. The mind, with no director, is still creating the observer, which it labels "I".