Bruno Loff:
During my dark night, and lasting to this day, I have become hyper-sensitive towards marijuana, which nowadays causes me to trip very strongly: it would be like acid if it wasn't for the very high level of mental noise and anxiety.
Definitely a no-no for me.
Yeah, the effects vary so much, not just between people but even over the course of a lifetime. For some people, at some times, it's just as likely to magnify rather than pacify painful states.
Years ago I used to find marijuana relaxing, enjoyable, dreamy, surreal, funny... a nice way of enhancing music, sex and food. And if I wanted to concentrate, I could concentrate very very well. But something changed. I'm not sure why. These days, more often than not, there's nothing relaxing about it; it's more like a moral and psychological crucifixion... a really painful exposé of every ugly aspect of my personality, life and character. Not fun. (But, as the analogy kind of implies, it has a sort of purifying effect over time... and that has its place. I seldom use it nowadays, but when I do it's in bursts of two to three weeks, often with years in between).
So yeah, it causes me to "trip very strongly" too, in a way ... but definitely not in an LSD-like way. I like (and handle) the intensely psychotic kind of LSD-trippy effect much better the intensely personal, intensely neurotic and kinda claustrophic marijuana-trippy effect.
Would definitely not recommend it for the OP's purpose. If it works, you've created a dependency. And if it doesn't... well...