for so long i could not log in so haven't been updating this, checking in today i see i'm automatically logged in ~ no password needed! geeez, here i am, hmmmm. well since the last retreat (self retreat) i was so grounded, happy, peaceful and in the flow that i 'decided' to not meditate at all. i did jhana hop up to 8th and fruition laying in bed in the morning, which takes concentration and may help get the mindfulness up and running for the day, but not really anything like a hour sit. so my overall mental state degraded markedly over the two months. great experiment, one i'm familiar with, but really to the point where i am totally getting over this roller coaster ride ~ the ups and downs just not satisfactory at all, the ignorance it fosters sickens me. i am into seasonal changes and spring equinox i put in a one day sit and it felt great, now i'm doing hour sit every mooring. the haifitmoba had all but evaporated the last two months so i'll see if i get back to that. in the sit i dig into concentration/focus breath and then vipassana and towards the end try to get to that point where my heart chakra opens and flows. if that sounds weird it is a practice i was doing maybe reported in the hamilton project journal i kept~ for me it vastly helped my peace and putting compassion out to others throughout the day. something i'm not naturally geared towards b/c the fashion i was raised in (childhood issues) so i think for me it is a very worthy focus ~ lovingkindness practice.~ may you be happy