Daniel M. Ingram:
What drives you in this? What calls to you?
The challenge? The suffering? The glory? The quest? The need to know? The need to help others? The conviction that there is a better way? The desire for amazing mind states? The fear of death and pain? The anger at confusion and ignorance?
What it is?
When you have the internal fight: can you settle into that, relax into that, then gently, easily, carefully, slowly check out the fight itself? What would happen if you did that?
Though about more walking practice? It is usually much easier and less painful and internally conflicted for those reasons and yet can be really powerful if done well.
Gone on retreats? Seen what those can do for the power of the mind to cut through to something else?
My deepest drive is to live in a better way, causing less suffering to myself and others.
I really like walking practice but have stopped since my knee injury. Pushed too far in yoga practices so now I only sit in a chair.
I went on a 21 day retreat but ended up staying for 10 days only. I couldn't stand the suffering of practicing for 10-12 hours /day. Decided to go back home and work slowly on my practice and hit another retreat after making some progress.
The biggest challenge is having to go through all this on my own. The more I become interested in this path the more I realize that this is a solitary path.
I have to admit though that coming across this forum 2 months back has been of great help.