I never mentioned the advocation of LSD, I was just saying that we should drop the bullshit and talk about it without getting into this faux-shamanic "medicine" crap. I'm neither for or against the whole psychonaut approach, it's up to the person involved whether they're willing to take that risk since, as you know yourself, psychedelics in particular are very unstable and the results unreliable. Another discussion for another time though but don't construe my stance as being either pro- or anti- anything.
There is nothing to attain other than finding your "true self". Which is in fact what you already are.
I am not claiming anything. There is nothing to claim.
I ask because this community generally focuses on techniques, the application therof and the results obtained. As such, most of us tend to use the Theravadan 4-Path model and so my question was asked in a effort to clarify your current experience and make discussion easier. The level of realization you point to seems to suggest, to me at least, that you believe you've attained what's referred to here as arahatship, or 4th path.
My "seeking" that I previously practiced was just straight zazen. I would sit and just watch things arise and fall. Then when I was in the mood, I would ask questions. For example, I would ask the question, "Who am I?" and I would feel that question. The question itself has no answer and I looked for no answer. I felt the sense of not knowing. I abided in that not knowing and just continued with my zazen. If something brought more attention, I would bring my awareness to that.
So you do have experience of a technique which people here are familiar with? Good! That's a start.
My own knowledge of zazen is limited so I can't comment on that at present. However, the questioning you refer to and the "felt" answers that followed remind me of 6th samatha jhana, or perhaps the experience of sitting in the "I". Kenneth Folk has a wonderful take on this which may be of interest to you, he calls it 2nd Gear and I've found similar experiences to those you mention while practicing this. Again, the interpretation I'm giving here is based on my understanding of the words you've said and my own experience so please correct me if I'm mistaken.
What brought you to the DhO? Why are you posting the details of your attainment/awakening/enlightenment? What's the reason for this? What do you want from this? If you say "Nothing" I'll boot you in the swingers 'cause you're still looking, otherwise you wouldn't be here, so be honest with yourself. You could deceive or mislead people, which I don't think is your intention, and it would do you no good, bring no fundamental insight, and lead to a whole stack of suffering which is what we're all trying to eradicate here!
Here's some speculation on what you've added to your posting:
Given your added information, I can't possibly make any sort of diagnosis beyond what I said earlier. I'd still stick to considering that you've quite possibly attained stream entry, but over and above that I have no idea. Your description of your current experience may be subject to a bit of hyperbole due to the limitations of expressing these things in written form and I'm always skeptical of that. Don't take this as an insult, I'd rather be honest and have you think I'm a prick than feed you bullshit.
There's a chance that you've stumbled upon "direct perpection", or the PCE (Pure Consciousness Experience). This is kinda grey area for me, I don't want to get involved in an AF vs. Dharma debate so I'll steer clear of saying too much about this. Basically, the way you describe seeing everything as beautiful, loving existence etc etc is the sort of description I would associate with this mode of perception. I see PCE as just another mode of perception, the permanent attainment of this mode is now referred to as "Actual Freedom", personally I have no interest in pursuing this as the final goal although there's a fair amount of experienced people on here who could discuss AF/PCE further with you if you wanted.
The comment about "What is preventing me right now from leaving everything as it is?" suggests to me that you're getting into this mode of perception, and slipping back out by trying to figure it out while it's occurring. Would I be correct in saying that you're unable to be aware of any "negative" emotion while experiencing this?
Another thing to consider is that you may have crossed the A&P through taking LSD, I believe this is quite a common thing to happen and have experienced this myself, and may, through the subsequent changes in your relationship with the world brought about by that event which led you to meditation, have set you on the way to 1st Path, Stream Entry. If you've come from a Zen background, or at least techniques which are not vipassana or samatha, then it would be worth discussing these terms with someone more familiar with this.
The practice you say you're currently doing doesn't sound very familiar to me, beyond the self-enquiry stuff, so, again, it would probably be of more use to you to discuss it with someone more experienced in these techniques.
I get the impression from your post that you're trying to emphasize just how "normal" you are post-awakening, if indeed that is the case, and can understand your desire to do so. You may very well have attained 4th, 3rd, 2nd, 1st or 157th Path, you may have got some heretofore unknown attainment, you may be experiencing PCE mode, you may be totally deluded. Only time and practice will tell, other than that there's not much for it!
Good luck anyway and thanks for taking the time to clarify.