| | Bagpuss The Gnome: To balance my practice a bit, and combat aversion in the spirit of right-intention I've stared doing some metta practice according to these instructions. The fear is of course that I'm eating into my vipassana time, the hope is that it will strengthen concentration and aid good sleep! I just did 40mins and I must say it was rather pleasant. I can't be sure what I was feeling was not just concentration though, as I repeat "be safe, be happy, be healthy, live with ease" which would probably work pretty good even without the "projecting" of metta (something again im unsure if I am feeling/doing correctly). At times, with certain easy individuals it really did feel like a force projecting from me to them. Is that how it feels for you? When it was good, a warm, tingly all through the body (not just on the skin) feeling of low-level pleasure suffused my entire body. It was very much akin to some of the stuff that I feel in my anapana practice, but more "spread out" and even. Some 20mins or so later I stil have this feeling in the body. Can anyone share their experiences of Metta practice in general? How do you do it? How often? How long? What happens when you do it? Just looking to compare notes... It does not have to eat into your 'vipassana time' I found doing metta practice (when I used to do it a year ago), very, very rewarding and insightful. You said you perceive a 'force' that projects from you when you send out your good will and compassionate intentions. Instead of labeling this experience as a 'force', perhaps pay attention to where attention goes. Outwards into space? If so, instead of labeling the outward movement of attention as the 'force' (although that would be very jedi cool), you could become aware of perceptions of 'space' as you chanted your metta. You could then start investigating 'sankhara' and any mental movemnts juxtaposed against that anchor of 'space'. The relationship of 'space' and compassion (karuna) could be investigated as part of your 'vipassana' practice at the same time as practicing metta/acts of karuna. Some interesting related quotes: "Then again, a monk keeps pervading the first direction[2] with an awareness imbued with good will, likewise the second, likewise the third, likewise the fourth. Thus above, below, & all around, everywhere, in its entirety, he keeps pervading the all-encompassing cosmos with an awareness imbued with good will — abundant, expansive, immeasurable, without hostility, without ill will. He reflects on this and discerns, 'This awareness-release through good will is fabricated & intended. Now whatever is fabricated & intended is inconstant & subject to cessation.' Staying right there, he reaches the ending of the mental fermentations. Or, if not, then — through this very Dhamma-passion, this Dhamma-delight, and from the total wasting away of the first five Fetters — he is due to be reborn [in the Pure Abodes], there to be totally unbound, never again to return from that world. "This too, householder, is a single quality declared by the Blessed One — the one who knows, the one who sees, worthy & rightly self-awakened — where the unreleased mind of a monk who dwells there heedful, ardent, & resolute becomes released, or his unended fermentations go to their total ending, or he attains the unexcelled security from the yoke that he had not attained before. http://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/mn/mn.052.than.html
"In this case, monks, a monk cultivates the enlightenment-factor of mindfulness accompanied by loving-kindness and similarly the enlightenment-factors of investigation-of-states, energy, rapture, tranquillity, concentration, equanimity, accompanied by loving-kindness which is based on detachment, dispassion, leading to maturity of surrender. If he wishes to dwell perceiving the repulsive in what is not repulsive, he dwells thus perceiving the repulsive. If he wishes to dwell perceiving the unrepulsive in what is repulsive, he dwells thus perceiving the unrepulsive. If he wishes to dwell perceiving the repulsive both in what is repulsive and what is not repulsive, if he wishes to dwell perceiving the unrepulsive in both..., he dwells thus. If he wishes, avoiding both the repulsive and unrepulsive, to dwell equanimous,[2] mindful and clearly aware,[3] he dwells thus, equanimous, mindful and clearly aware, or, attaining the heart's release called 'beautiful'[4] he abides there. I declare that the heart's release by loving-kindness has the beautiful for its excellence. This is the attainment of a wise monk who penetrates to no higher release.[5] "And how, monks, does a monk cultivate release by compassion? What is its goal, its excellence, its fruit and its outcome? "In this, monks, a monk cultivates the enlightenment-factors of mindfulness... equanimity accompanied by compassion... [as above]... he dwells thus, equanimous, mindful, clearly aware or, by passing utterly beyond all perception of objects, by the going-down of perceptions of sensory reactions,[6] by disregarding perceptions of diversity, thinking 'space is infinite,' he attains and dwells in the sphere of infinite space.[7] I declare that the heart's release by compassion has the sphere of infinite space for its excellence. This is the attainment of a wise monk who penetrates to no higher release. http://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/sn/sn46/sn46.054x.wlsh.htmlJust my 2 cents of what I'd do if in your situation with what I have experienced. |