| | Here are three items related to my current practice for the last four months.
(Exercise) I have discovered that I seem to benefit greatly from exercising. At least three times a week, preferably more. I do 20-30 minutes on the eliptical running machine, plus 20-30 minutes of stretching or joint rotations or a mild yoga.
During the running, I am finding it best to keep my effort level just at the edge of where I am clearly doing aerobic exercise, without pushing it. It is helpful to realize that there is sometimes a felt "effort-barrier" which can be gently overcome. At this threshold level (without slacking or pushing too hard), the body warms up, and that is pleasant (in that I will actually feel bliss).
This seems to help in relieving tension and normalizing mood, particularly restlessness. I am interested in any tips anyone has on how to use exercise as an aid to meditation.
(Self-kindness) I have had some partial success decreasing tension with a self-kindness-based way of "doing stuff," where I feel tender and caring towards myself. This is particularly successful when I suddenly realize that I am struggling against myself internally (for instance, I might feel profoundly critical of myself, for no good reason, and then suddenly see that this is of no good to me or anyone); I will then "empathize" with myself, so to speak, and adopt an internal posture of greater understanding, acceptance, and caring for myself. This has on 3-4 occasions caused a very noticeable shift, when it feels that the body warms up a little, and there is a strange new energy in the solar plexus, palms of my hands, and face, which somehow "digests tension" more smoothly and at a faster rate.
I don't know if anyone has had an experience like this (Jeff maybe?), but if so I would like to know more.
(Strange ajna-flutter) For well over a year now I have this strange phenomenon: during most times when awake I can easily connect to this strange on-off fluttering sensation, which seems to be felt mostly at the ajna point in the middle of the forehead, but can also appear elsewhere. If I close my eyes and connect to it, my eyelids start trembling in a way that resembles REM sleep. Sometimes this fluttering is felt at other chakra points, the second most frequent being the base of the spine. Sometimes the fluttering is seen in the whole field of vision, which will then "blacken", or "blink", repeatedly *blink* *blink* *blink* ...
Once Clayton was visiting me in Amsterdam and when I asked him to go through the jhanas, he had the same eye-fluttering/trembling phenomena while experiencing (what he said was) 8th jhana, or around that territory. However, I seem to have it most of the time whenever I close my eyes. Actually, this fluttering will sometimes assault me even when my eyes are open, and this is more prone to happen when adjusting to strong sunlight. I used to fight it, as I found it irritating, but nowadays I just let it be (which requires extra precaution while riding my bycicle).
There also seems to be some connection between this flutter and cessation moments, though it is not very clear to me what that connection is. If I decide to close my eyes and stay with that flutter for a while, then, upon reopening my eyes, my field of vision will have a change in hue (sometimes slight, sometimes glaring), specifically it will look more blue.
Also, sometimes attending to the fluttering will lead to an accumulation of tension (typically in the middle of the head), and sometimes it will lead to great internal pleasure and release (including fruitions, after which the fluttering drops suddenly and briefly to the heart, and then I feel rested, refreshed, renewed).
Does anyone know what the heck is this thing?
(Flotation Tank) I have also been doing flotation tank sessions once or twice a week for about a month now. It seems very promising: I didn't really know what it meant to be that relaxed while still awake. Maybe I have more to tell on that later. Any tips and tricks with respect to making good use of floating time are also welcome. |