So your saying i should focus my metta concentration on the irritation, overwhelmingness etc. ?
And i think i get what you mean with the allusion to india in which it is an development of empathy. I mean i love doing metta meditation just for the sake that it improves my awareness concerning the suffering of certian beings but my only problem i noticed is applying it more to daily life. To people, freinds, animals and others and all such situations.
I hope your right regarding the path and the route i am taking. Anyways thanks for the info and advice
I have been responding to your two threads. The other thread mentions your resolution which I understood to be metta. I am a bit confused.
Also, I am not "right" about the path and route you are taking. I am not sure what that path is. Since you express wanting to be a theravadan monk, I suggested a monk who teaches by internet, supplied his contact means and have encouraged you to get instruction from monastics.
What happens in your daily life that seems not to be metta?
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So your saying i should focus my metta concentration on the irritation, overwhelmingness etc. ?
Yes: one sits with emotion not attached to them. It is not so easy to do this with hard emotions and discomfort; so one has metta for oneself, knowing one is training in observing what the mind is doing impulsively (impulsive thoughts and impulsive feelings) without acting on those impulsive thoughts and feelings.
For example, if I am sitting and my stomach is too full and I am sleepy and irritated, then these things can be sincerely observed. The observation is being done to train your mind, but also to train your own empathy. If you have empathy for yourself, you will probably have the basis for empathy for others. Because you recognize and study the/your causes of your stress, you can study and recognize the causes of other people's stress (or at least know to ask them to share their experience as they know it, to help them to become willing to learn from their own experience).
And i think i get what you mean with the allusion to india in which it is an development of empathy.
Here I mean that as a monk - even if you were to become a recluse - people will seek you out for practice advice and solace. Someone may say, "I've been trying to meditate after eating and..." or "I cannot stop eating and heard meditation can help..." or something and your personal study - your personal friendly study of yourself will allow you to have some skill in hearing this person and possibly counseling them in how to meditate on their stressor. Heaviness, eating, food, fatigue are symptoms of the eating disorders developing in countries all around the developed world.
Truly, because your interest in monastic life is so specific, I recommend again that you reach out to a monastic for some guidance. From my point of view, if you can field these questions with lay persons like us on the DhO, then I assume you can also field these same questions with someone like Bhante Yuttadhammo via the internet link provided in the other thread. Truly, I think answers from him or someone of his tradition will be more appropriate for you based on your specificity of monastic interest.
Ok, best wishes