| | Hi! This is a post just to share something strange that I noticed, and eventually asking for feedback, opinions, or different ways other people has conceptualized this phenomenon.
Basically, I was following the sinple instruction "Stop doing what you are intentionally doing". At one point, I kinda say that it felt like the act of breathing was something that I was doing; at that point, I kinda stopped that, and ended up me still breathing, but it felt like I just stopped doing it intentionally. Same semsations, but something was different, the sensations felt like going on by themselves, and until here everything is quite normal.
At some point, short after that, I realized that in every observed sensations there was some kind of intentional component mixed in it, like I was doing something in relation to thoose sensations, in the same way that previously it felt like I was doing something somehow related to the act of breathing. Basically, what I did was just stopping "doing" whatever I was doing "inside" the sensations, and it felt like there was no "me" doing anything about the sensation, while before it felt like there was some kind of "action" that I was doing "inside" the sensation.
The strange thing is that it feels like every single sensation I experience, I can somehow drop some intentional component that seems inherent with the sensation, and it feels like I have stopped "doing" the sensation, in the same way I could have stopped doing any action, but the sensation is still there, still moving, still doing it's thing. The result is that I have some more "pure", more "just felt in the felt", more "going on by it's own accord" sensation. Also I noticed that sensations seems to cause many other sensations in the body; sometimes theese sensations feels like ramifications of the original sensations, or sensations with a strong intentional component that arise as a consequence of the original sensation; I noticed that, by stopping "doing" the sensation, all of this ramification network seems much less active than before.
It doesn't feel completely outside or not compatible with the buddhist thought, but it felt somehow strange seeing this, because I never heard of anyone talking about this thing... Any idea on this? |