I know my topic itself may offend, but my experience was crisp, out of this world, filled with unfathomable depth and intense enough to cause a change in lineage and has convincing resemblance to the frutation. I have spent 8 years learning the Theravada ( after discovering the that my heavenly experience has to my understanding close resemblance to the stream entry ) and I thought I don’t need any more diagnosticians telling me what it was or wasn’t. but after seeing how well equipped you folks are I beg of you to spare a minute and let me know what you think of it.
I was born a Buddhist in sri lanka, with a Theravada temple next door to our house,
My father was how ever a Christian, an atheist to be more accurate. And taught me the values of having an open mind. I never believed in any religion nor any spiritual teachings at the time.
I wasn’t the kind of person who created a lot of trouble but I was such a curious case I did science experiments around the age of 12 which left me with a few minor acid burns , experiments with electronics had me electrocuted a few times etc. ( just to add the context of my DXM use ) around the age of 18 I discovered Dextromethorphan and started my experiments with it.
The first trip with a significant dose ( of around 80mgs I think ) caused my life to just skip a beat.
This is how the night unfolded,
Tremendous energy – I could feel my heart pumping event though I was lying down to get in to the trip more. My veins were inflated like could feel the blood pumping, quite drowsy at this stage.
Everyone at home was retiring for the night, I was lying on my bed and I turned the music on with a good noise cancelling set of headphones.
I covered my eyes with a cloth just blocking any light that may enter.
I could feel an explosion in my head excitement , joy, it was such a rush but not a muscle moved,
I cant give a time frame as all track of time had vanished by this stage, my body felt like it was immersed in a slab of concrete.
After spending some very high quality time just being there I have at some point started processing information, I cannot recall what led to it, but when I described the trip to my friend the next day I said “it was as if I was looking down at life from a very high mountain.. the life I had was like a single grain of sand compared to the state I was in”.
I remember processing lots of information so fast, it was like a river running right through my system, me being fully aware of each drop of water, knowing a lot of things about each drop what’s happening to it etc,, at a certain point it was like I had 6-7 tv screens in my head playing different channels and I was watching and understanding all 6-7 channels simultaneously.
This went on for the majority of the trip estimated 7-8 hours, I remember describing this processing/calculation as a marvellous achievement that I my friend can never get to comprehend.
I very clearly remember when this river of processing just stopped, I can’t remember the end note or the last calculation I made but the river ended like a long train passing you would.
After being sooo absorbed in all this calculations for so long without a pause for the first time I had a second to my self. I remember thinking wow wonder what that was about.
Then I visualised my system as a casket. Like a safety deposit box, my soul even the front two lids of it opened and some 37-38 things went in to it and the doors closed firmy.
Then immediately following that I saw sort of above me but not in a dimensional sense but rather soething that’s great and ahead of me,, something like a ball of light its something out of this world,… it’s a truth out of this world and I will soon come to it.
Very brief and after that it was like I have been lifted to heaven… it just was.. ah this is heaven this must be heaven I kind of thought… it was that good of a feeling like a cool flow of water running through me.. heaven unfortunately didn’t last too long,,, all had stopped,,, I wasn’t doing anything but my eyes opened so slowly lifting the piece of cloth on top of lids I suppose but have no memory of any of this. My eyes opened like on their own. The window in my bed room had a thin white lace curtain, with more holes than lace… the moonlight through the lace curtain is flooding the bedroom..my eyes are still opening…not a single eye ball moving … it was ssssssoooooooooooooooo beautiful… it brings tears..
The funny part is my world to that night was just a material existence.. I have not been blacked out of alcohol prior to that… but here I was explaining to my best buddy how he / I / my girlfriend at the time were like pararelle tracks of railway like,,, but my destination would be an out of this world truth.
After two psychiatrists and a few years of medication I gave up on this.. but thought I’ll ask what you thought of it.
As far as life after it,, I have become a total different person,,, have been actively trying to free myself completely to dedicate myself to mediation… its been 8 years now and I have a my goal at around October 2014 to settle all domestic matters.
As far as meditating from there I have tried many times on my own but have had little success.
I’ve tried more dxm trips but it was more a matter of the stars shining my way that night I think.
Let me know what you think… be gentle though