Matthew Wight:
I can't talk about the nature of my problem in public, but I can in private.
If anyone would be willing to lend me their ear and offer me some advice I would be willing to pay for it if necessary.
If you can help please send me a PM, I would honestly and sincerely appreciate it.
Iff you are willing to pay for advice it must be serious. Here is the site of ron crouch. He is a psychologist slash teacher of meditation. You could contact him if you wish
http://alohadharma.wordpress.com/If the nature of your problem is dharmic related, my email is nhalay at gmail. If it is something else, more professional help might be more appropriate, such as ron's.
Nick