| | Thanks Dan. That's an interesting point.
And it makes sense. I'm definitely interested in it. I never thought about it that way, but there is at least a level of fascination or attachment. Conversely, I am really afraid, as well. Especially when my breathing stops. That's when I start to worry about brain damage. I don't seem to be sufficating, but I don't seem to be breathing.
It happens when I practice Vipassana (as I was taught it), which is basically observing whatever is my most prominent sensation. So once my most prominent sensation is this energetic phenomena, I start observing it. The more I observe, the closer I get to the moment, the more it builds.
Something similar, in terms of building energy occurs with Metta or mindfulness of breath. It is slightly less intense. At least it doesn't build up quite so radically.
I guess my real question is, "Is it dangerous?" "Can it cause brain damage?" "Is permanent harm possibe?" An ayurvedic doctor said I would go insane if I meditated for over 10 minutes, so that's added to my fear.
I know Mind said it is all good and the monks did as well, but I'm still feeling very cautious. It feels so real. And afterwords, if I do it more than just a few minutes, my crown is really active. One time, it started jmy crown just started pounding(outside meditation). I could barely focus. I backed off meditation, and that subsided. Although the super intense event also coincided with doing Yoga, which I also stopped. The Yoga front is another thing that confuses me. If I bring my awareness to my body, say when I'm lying down, my body just starts doing Yoga on its own.
If it won't damage me, I'm up for observing it. I'm just a little nervous about it. Have you all had a similar experience? And was it safe?
Thanks again for your perspective. |