A D R:
From my vantage point, when someone says "you could really benefit from a one-on-one teacher relationship" I read it as "please fuck off," not because I don't value and respect those elder brothers of the dharma, but because I have never had an interaction with someone who "seemed enlightened" that left me with the sense that some kind of teaching or learning had taken place.
I suspect I may have made that suggestion to you at one point, and I definitely didn't mean to say 'fuck off.' It's just that kind of misunderstanding that prompts me to think a lot of us would be better off with teachers than asking questions on forums. Not only will you get multiple - often conflicting - answers from posts, but it's likely they're written poorly, or ambiguously, or that you'll misread them through your own filters. Half the discussions I have here immediately turn into debates about what was said, even though it's written right there. It's not a great medium for clarity, alas.
Maybe you're expecting too much from teachers? Like some kind of magical transmission? If you get a clear instruction on how to practice, just follow it. Suspend your disbelief.
Personally, I appreciate your questions, and I've been rooting for you. It's true that in most cases the answer to most questions is "practice!" On the other hand sharing your experiences and getting input is invaluable and that's why we're all here. The self-examination and awareness reflected in your post is evidence of the benefit.
I guess the question I would ask, is if there are people on this forum who really feel like when they ask questions they are learning something, or conversely, if giving advice they feel like they are actually teaching something.
To the first part, yes. I've learned a lot. To the second part: when giving advice I feel like I'm also learning, mostly to stop giving advice.