So this Burbea talk on Nagarjuna and noticing the affect of dualities of any kind (Wisdom of non-duality) has thrown me for a loop today. Basically I start letting go much sooner than before and I can now see how subtle dualities "this is better than that" is affecting me. This morning the letting go created a slight "unbearable lightness of being" feeling that eventually subsided. Other than that today has been incredibly smooth like never before. Doing things is now less painful. The Advaita Vedanta "rest in consciousness", "don't do anything" etc is now seen through as masking more subtle clinging and laziness. By noticing the smallest possible aversion it can be let go sooner and doing tasks is now becoming more effortless. There's still tiredness but the real kind as opposed to aversion masking as tiredness.
When you mix what is learned from the "Clarifying the natural state" book of not repressing anything but also not adding rumination, plus adding the 7 factors of awakening, and then noticing how quick the perception is with dualities of experience things are normal but even more smooth. Notice dualities in liking something vs. not liking something. Notice posting in this forum vs. not posting LOL!. Especially notice doing something with enjoyment as a short-term relief vs. doing something more constructive.
Notice blocking unpleasant sensations vs. allowing them. Notice blocking a wandering mind vs. noticing you're already back. Notice wanting your life to be a certain way vs. accepting all the flaws. Notice disliking what is happening vs. accepting it. Notice being concentrated vs. not being concentrated. Notice disliking the effort in concentration practice vs. not meditating. Notice excluding something from experience vs. including all things in experience. Notice not welcoming experience vs. welcoming all experience. Notice disliking people vs. liking people. Notice over-analysis vs. doing. Notice not accepting the doing vs. accepting the doing. It just goes on and on.
Eg. When driving home I knew I needed to get some milk. The conditioning quickly thought 'na I can just go home and do without it." "I have to pick up some gas, oh I did a wrong turn so maybe I should do that later?" I felt the aversion in that thinking/clinging and quickly let go. I went and got the milk and gas (even if I had to drive a longer way) and felt totally normal and quite bright and relaxed with no clinging. The above description is much slower than how it actually happened. It's more like a minuscule tightening in the head that is let go of right away. This is making the Energy factor of awakening smoother since maintaining this result seems to require only a subtle effort. Forcing with too much concentration could just be more aversion to what's there. There's a quick subtle question underlying things and that is "do I really need this?" "Is that really important?" This question is non-conceptual in that it's more like feeling pain and letting things drop without adding more content. Then you go and non-chalantly do what's needed instead.
I can now see more clinging than I have ever seen before and I think this is probably my new best day. I can see how this can work with internet, home habits etc. I can also see how this can blindside people into thinking they are enlightened. As far as I'm concerned a fully enlightenment person may not entirely exist. It's a gradation between full blown addiction habits on one hand and complete liberation of habits on the other. Ultimately debating this or much of anything has to be done with skill or else it's another clinging. LOL!
Very appreciative!
Metta to all who've provided good information to me FOR FREE! This is what makes this website great. The pointless debates are a waste of time. Oh wait! Is that another duality? As long as I'm not clinging it's okay. The carefulness can't stop.
EDIT: Also notice clinging to the present moment.