how do you interpret your own body movements?
you wrote month ago that you see your hands doing own stuff, ok, I get it, its no-self mode, normal and ordinary dharma perception you should have at 2nd or 3rd path depending on how you cut this enlightenment cake
but can you see that you do really move them? kinda like on the other side of mirror, seeing this is just interpretation and you do not control anything
even if this interpretation says otherwise!
I was in no-self, not even being able to exercise single move of my hand. Then I was able to integrate 'self' as not *doer* but *interpreter*. It was BIG IMPROVEMENT, though even if idea is simple and improvement immediate integrating it take time. Its about 9 months and path change now and I still struggle sometimes with seeing stuff clearly... but when I do there is quality to life no no-self, no fruition can never give. Fruition afterglow have short life and wow factor dry quite fast not being able to satisfy while having right view on own mind is just just like perfect satisfaction by no sensations of need for permanence, need for satisfaction and need for it to be more 'self' that it already is and because it is not confused for self or something pernament of being able to satisfy its 3C are known.
Immediately when I try to not use interpreter there is this cycling and fruition potential rising up, like now its possible to have them, it is felt in every sense door, felt as trembling allover the body. There is this overwhelming potential of cycling rising up, to have full blip fruitions and all the stuff. It is felt as trembling of mind generated by lots of seemingly random sensations. Interpreted mode in comparison is always soft, clean and nice. Its like rising above cycling, above fruitions and above all this hard work enlightenment crap itself being closer to enlightenment than any fruition ever was, at the same time being so ordinary, so right, like we were supposed to have this mind mode from the start. What is enlightened in non-experience anyway?
It kinda feels counterintuitive to go 'back' but its something different. There is a lot of suffering when you identify with the process, even more when you struggle to control it. But when you merely see intepretation and know its just interpretation... not much suffering at all. There is more suffering in no-self cause sensations arise and are still interpreted as *your* sensations. In interpreter they are identified as interpretation of something that is happening to interpretation to yourself. It might sound counterintuitive and like putting some layers between self and reality but actually its seeing things as they really are.
Anyhow, wish you good practice