| | Author: thittato
Pain breaks up into smaller sensations, but it takes a little bit effort. I have to deliberately zoom in on it in order for it to happen. No GREAT sense of happiness, but more a sense of calm joy combined with feeling energized, like something fun is going on, but not over the moon. No feelings of unity, though, I feel inwardly collected, especially since the thought process has calmed down quite a bit and made the mind feel pretty light and quiet. I don’t feel enlightened, but I’m starting to feel that I know what I’m doing, that I actually sit down on the cushion and the technique surprisingly does what it’s supposed to do, so there’s a sense of confidence. More creative than usual? Yes, much the same sense coffee or sleep deprivation often gives me a creative boost.
I could also add that my field of vision behind closed eyelids has a brightness to it that is flickering at a high frequency, and that there are tingling sensations in my hands, feet, where my buttocks touch the cushion, and around the abdomen, and usually wherever I pay closer attention, for instance when I look closer at pain. Thoughts and most feelings (especially the uncomfortable ones) disappear as soon as I note them, and their entrance and departure feels smoother. The noting of it all is pretty effortless, and I’d say I consistently put a label on something once per second, and at the same time I simultaneously notice many other sensations that I don’t have time to put a note on.
I’m not sure whether I’m able to “completely penetrate the object” or only “partly penetrate the object”, but things are moving in the direction of breaking up more and more. |