obviously i dont want to be spending all my time on this forum. this is my last post and last message.
if you are simply looking for love, then i suggest it is a good idea to get off the wheel of chasing it in any kind of hardcore practise. check out 'a path with a heart' by jack kornfield. cultivate love and compassion here and now
if you have lost meaning in things, keep the faith. what you see is a mirror hiding you from a greater truth and clarity.
hope you can let truth meaning and beauty in. bye!