<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?> <rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" version="2.0"> <channel> <title>... Continued - I don't know 'where' I am.</title> <link>http://www.dharmaoverground.org/c/message_boards/find_thread?p_l_id=&amp;threadId=5603528</link> <description>... Continued - I don't know 'where' I am.</description> <pubDate>Sun, 19 Oct 2014 01:40:28 GMT</pubDate> <dc:date>2014-10-19T01:40:28Z</dc:date> <item> <title>... Continued - I don't know 'where' I am.</title> <link>http://www.dharmaoverground.org/c/message_boards/find_message?p_l_id=&amp;messageId=5603527</link> <description>Okay - the interface of this website on moble is going to make me cry ( Hahahahaaa - not very enlightened?)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;anyway... Stuff happened. Here is where I am now, or at least what I can &amp;#039;see&amp;#039; ... And not unsee&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;please respond if you get any of this! I&amp;#039;m terrified-excited! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- how all of reality is vibrations, but of what I don&amp;#039;t know. Substance is not really a word worth using here. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- able to feel it as such and notice it as only such, but also something else... But not even a something...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- an insight that all things microcosmic to macro cosmic have awareness, and &amp;#039;desire&amp;#039; and &amp;#039;aversion&amp;#039; as the result of a sort of ... Preference isn&amp;#039;t the right word - it is aware and flowing, but not because of physics - it causes physics - this insight is new and hard to express, but it resolves the &amp;#039;well this is all nothing and empty in a bad meaningless way&amp;#039; idea. It&amp;#039;s really really really fucking cool - to put it mildly. Very big understatement. No words - not real solid understanding of this. It&amp;#039;s new. It really knocked me out. (&amp;#039;Funny&amp;#039; story - I pulled my car over when this happened, watched a person leave his car, two gunshots, then he followed me onto the highway - hello real world and not dying being worth it and important again!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- being able to feel all phenomena as vibration in a complete way, but able to ease back into normal things and have fun, be neurotic still, have laundry, chop wood, carry water and &amp;#039;be&amp;#039; who I &amp;#039;was&amp;#039;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- the very profound notion : how the hell did I not notice reality is an illusion before? I&amp;#039;m a somehow patterned grouping of vibrations that are constantly not me/part of everything/everything/ every ONE ... The everyone things seems more accurate. I had love and compassion and excitement for all of the atoms in my dashboard/air/some tree/ all of the universe... &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- everything is bigger and fuller and depper then not only humans can think - but once you notice it, numbers and size are pretty much a moot and outdated concept - by a lot&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;theres more, but my thumbs are tired ;)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;welp - take your best shot. Please don&amp;#039;t post any negitive feedback. Um - not sure why anyone would if they can see this stuff. Oh! I hope someone gets this who I can just chat with. I haven&amp;#039;t really told anyone in non &amp;#039;oh gee this must be a mental illness fluke&amp;#039; kind of facade. People are way more comfortable with it - like getting drunk is an acceptable time to hug people, but if I just wanted to hug everyone I see (and I do! And hug all the gluons! They&amp;#039;re giving it away, cheeky things ;) ... Well, that would get looks... Maybe cops. :p</description> <pubDate>Sun, 12 Oct 2014 16:02:28 GMT</pubDate> <guid isPermaLink="false">http://www.dharmaoverground.org/c/message_boards/find_message?p_l_id=&amp;messageId=5603527</guid> <dc:creator>Heather bird McElroy</dc:creator> <dc:date>2014-10-12T16:02:28Z</dc:date> </item> </channel> </rss> 