| | Author: GreisGreis Forum: Dharma Overground Discussion Forum
Ok so I know most of the threads here are not quite like this, but I have been having some issues that you guys might have some insight on.
So I've been doing alot of reading in buddhist psychology and philosophy, but not much practice. I try to meditate daily, but I get lazy with it sometimes. A big problem with me is that I fear that I might go crazy or become so detached I no longer care about things (friends, family, etc.) if I continue down this path of letting things happen. The other day I was worrying about stuff, and I got upset, just feeling sort of helpless.
I just felt so fake and unreal, and the felling that I couldn't do anything about it. At a certain moment, I felt like I either had to be me, the thoughts inside my had, or everything else around me, the flow, whatever you want to call it. I sortof tried to give in to the flow, which gave me some relief. But that made me feel even more fake, everything I said or did, I really didn't think about it. I felt like I was stuck in some terrible limbo.
I don't want to get to the point where life is meaningless or anything like that. Help would be greatly appreciated. |