adam j. hunter:
I did alot better today not thinking about PCE at all. I focused not on trying to be happy, more on try to not suffer. I scrutinized every thought for any trace of social fear/desire/nurture/aggression and for any trace of instinctual fear/desire/nurture/aggression. I realized that almost every single thought I have has some element of an unconscious trace of this. I guess repeatedly calling them out as silly and ridiculous should cut right towards freedom. I'm just keeping in mind that perfection not existing occurs only through emotion, and emotion occurs only through social/instinctual identity.
Got the cause & effect wrong, there. First are the instinctual passions, on top of which is built the social identity. That is what identity is - a set of beliefs, which are thoughts backed by emotions.
Also you seem to be leaning towards denying your thoughts and emotions - that is silly! stop it! you have to not only repeatedly call it out as silly, but investigate why it is silly