Nad A:
Nad A:
it's about pain/discomfort and sometimes fatigue.
Well if its pain specifically, then that is not a psycho-social "feeling" to decrease. If its resentment toward a pain you have then that can decrease. Yes, resentment will come back again and again. Eventually, while being attentive many times and neither expressing or repressing the resentment, it will decrease in intensity but first you gotta do the work. It will not evaporate until one reaches AF. You may not notice the decrease in intensity as any resentment is and feels like suffering but it will arise less and less and less powerful. When you are not attentive and the resentment arises, you are most likely repressing or expressing the resentment in some way causing it to be increasingly painful.
This is harmlessness but if you don't add happiness/felicity then the resentment will continue to be an emotive underlying tone. The emotive tone is why it does not seem to disappear. One has to add felicity to completely take away the suffering and enjoy life. Also, as the suffering arises again and again, one finds a way back to felicity, resentment disappears, and life becomes semi-enjoyable (until really enjoyable). One has to truly renounce resentment and swear to relieve it at all times, which one does by being attentive, harmless, and then adding felicity. The emotive tone is constantly there until one becomes more and more harmless and layers are peeled off the emotive tone. Without felicity, harmlessness, although essential, is a bore and tough but felicity makes the process fun, one feel good, and life enjoyable.
Meditations is the wrong direction. Learn to be harmless, then learn to add felicity, then become naive and bam, your in PCE.
my practice is currently. first, feel good. second, be naive. third, find the stillness in the senses and I find myself in a PCE.
for you, my advice would be. first, learn how to become harmless. second, learn to add felicty. third, become sensuous, fourth be naive. You gotta learn these skills though and i think they are skills that one needs to learn how to apply. Also, don't try to do this all day. Take a walk for like 1-2 hours a day and do it there. all your doing is just learning how to be happy and harmless. apply to your life when you remember. At first for me, it was too much work to do it all the time so i just focused on getting better at convenient times during the day (but everyday). This is my advice take as you wish as its worked for me. life is better than ever.