| | Mostly I ended up going to a place I'd visited in a very strong experience early on in my Buddhist life, a place that is very safe to me, and very calm, and I'd just do basic sitting meditation and clear my mind. I was hoping it would help me sleep. Ihave issues with sleeping as I have a medical condition that means I get stuck in dreaming sleep, and don't get into deep, restorative sleep, so I wake like I've been awake all night, because essentially, my brain has. So I was hoping that calming my mind would help calm my brain activity and that my dreams would be less intense, and that I'd actually get some rest. I ended up expanding it a bit since I've had odd Dharma-related dreams and things for years, so I would ask Vajrapani to guide my dreams sometimes and see what happened. But that's a recent thing really - the last few years. I started because I knew I could do things in dreams just as in the real body, and it would affect me the same way. I know this because I'm quite severely disabled, and I used T'ai Chi as a good way of keeping my body going, and being able to walk whilst my body was trying desperately to stop me doing so. But sometimes, it was just too painful to do the movements, and since I believe in the Chi side of things anyway, I decided to just sit down and go through the 'feeling' and chi movements of the form and not actually move physically at all. I discovered that I can do T'ai Chi just as well mentally, as I can physically, and that after a mental session of doing it, my body responded as well as it did after a physical session - I could feel tiredness in my muscles, but also that the chi lines were better, and that I could move better because of this. None of this has ever been suggested as something I should try, by the way, it was just something I 'knew' I could do kind of, so I just did it. [Again, to next post...] |