Actually, I couldn't agree more.
My point was:
An insincerity is what causes pain, of being a contingent being (living a lie).
By being sincere, and going towards one extinction, does one find the end of suffering.
I delayed and delayed and delayed, but I delayed no more. And now it's done.
So don't worry about me.
Note: My practice didn't consist of "doing whatever I wanted".
You are simply, incorrect. Again.
Actually I've found that the opposite is true, if I just do whatever I feel like doing I get more deluded.
Actually I have found that that is not true. To each his own eh? One must first be aware of what one wants, then be sincere about it, then... well... sincerity is everything.
If you ever get serious about practicing you could try the inverse of what you mentioned and be aware of the impulses without acting on them.
This is actually what I did, toward the end.
As I see it, sincerity (in the pursuit of the end of suffering) is basically the time you spend mindfully suffering.
Nope, heedfulness is the path to the end of suffering.
So at least stay mindful. There is only so much I or anyone can say to invoke this sincerity, but the reality of suffering will get you eventually, could be decades or lifetimes... I hope it's less, but don't worry I won't "help" you find sincerity anymore
You are mistaken. I have invoked (past tense) the sincerity, and now it is done.
There is no delusion here, period. I was only lazy, lazy for quite some time.