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My interest is also shifting to this area... karma in particular, because I had a few wrong ideas about it. I really rebel against the whole idea of karma and yet it's inescapable. Right/wrong and guilt is built into the nervous system. Guilt means "You're free to do what you want, but watch your back...!" I hate that. I hate that Nature has decided to build the nervous system so that we're not really free.
Guilt - interesting... sometimes guilt feels a lot like the resentment of having a secret exposed.
Good stuff for investigation!
And so we all must surrender to it. I'm not in charge, IT is... whatever IT is! And IT dictates that I behave a certain way. If a control freak school teacher did that, I'd rebel, I'd have the guts to look him in the eye and tell him where to go... and now here's Nature doing the same thing, trying to manipulate and control!! I feel like I'm living with the commies in China, saying "yessir, no sir" to the thugs that run that godawful country.
I think this is where my ego gets most frustrated and annoyed (could you tell?!), because it's up against something insurmountable. Eventually I must surrender my will. Surrendering my will and my freedom is what enlightenment is all about. So I shouldn't really complain! HA!
Surrender is not the same as letting go.
Letting go is cessation of the act of holding on. It is not an act, it is cessation of action.
Surrender on the other hand, is an act. It is a deliberate statement of intent, pointing at letting go/cessation. It's kind of "fake it till you make it". Surrender is practice. Letting go is the fruit.
You're onto something there. Good work!
Cheers,
Florian