| | If true, as in there was "something going on": is that prognostication or manipulation and how could you tell the difference, or is the difference of more than intellectual importance?
Further, look at your core interest, the thing that gets the emotions going, the thing that really hits home, and think about how you might want the results to come out, truly.
Would you want a perfect 270? That would seem strange, wouldn't it, perhaps too perfect? What would that make you believe about things? Would it be safer to have no "effect"? If in your heart of hearts, you found the world and your sense of identity to be safer without an effect, but you actually had the power to create effects, in this case the effect you wanted, which was no effect, how can you tell no effect from the effect of creating something that looks just like no effect?
Wouldn't it be more comfortable to live in a world where impossible action at a distance was just as advertised, meaning impossible? Or, would you want to live in a world where that sort of power and causality operated but just not know it or stay content with hints of it and so create a result that gave you that conclusion?
Would you really want to live in and believe in a world where the impossible was possible, the power of the mind was that great, and that all the things like the sense of responsibility, possibility and also of fear that might come along with that?
Would you want, say, 580, or some other number that gave you an odds of it happening "by chance alone", whatever that is, of some astronomically small number?
Same questions as above: What if you thought your mind was that powerful, with this confirmed, certified, a zillion to one against it?
How would it be living in a world like that? What level of mental interest might create an effect on outcomes, on other people, on other situations? What if just casual interest did it? What if subconscious interest did it? What if the primal forces of dreams did it? (Ever seen Forbidden Planet?) What level of mental control, maturity, ethics, wisdom, causal understanding, and the like would be required to handle a mind in a world like that responsibly? If those are not within your ability to achieve, what would be the right thing to do then?
Or, would you want a number like 285, just off enough not to cause too much concern? Would that be easier, safer, less paradigm challenging, and so how could you tell if you created the response you wanted to get at some core level from just that happening "by chance"?
Or, would you want, say, a number that was just far enough different from 270 but not so far as, say, 580, like you got, such that you had the tingling possibility of something going on, just enough to be safe, but also enough to be excited about it, kinda' like a roller coaster: thrilling, but not dangerous, at least most of the time.
Which would actually create the most "juice" in you? Which would you truly want to be true?
How can you tell the difference between creating the effect you think you want and the effect you might really want at the deepest paradigmatic, identity and comfort levels?
What if other people had the same power you did? What if they had more, say much more? What would be the safe range you would be willing to believe in for that sort of power that people might actually possess?
What if they didn't have the morality, the ethics, the control, the wisdom you did? What if they were truly dangerous people, angry people, confused people, greedy people, far more dangerous than you ever thought, creating action at a distance in seemingly impossible ways by all their desires and intentions, their forces of will? What if there was a vast psychic tug-of-war with countless zillions of beings pulling in a zillion directions at the very fabric of causality all the time they were conscious (and possibly unconscious) whose rules you likely would never be able to even be able to start to grasp? What if that was the inherent fabric of the universe itself? Would you create a result that could lead you to conclusions like that?
Why is it that magickal training nearly always begins with defensive rituals and techniques, LBRP, that sort of thing? Why is Dion Fortune's Psychic Self-Defense still a classic? What are the implications of living with that sort of paradigm? Are fear and power inherently bound together? These are hard questions.
I have already done my own experiments and found the results initially very exciting, until I began to really think about the implications, and then I found them totally terrifying. Nothing like really thinking about this stuff to inspire one to try to be moral, work on one's stuff, and have fantastic powers of direct comprehension of what is going on in one's heart, mind and body at all times.
Would I choose to reinforce that conclusion with fresh data? Possibly... ;) I may give it a shot. |