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I admit I wish I knew whether what I see is what others in the practice mean. I've always seen fine vibrations, long before having a practice, with varying phases over time of frequency, intensity, and breadth of involvement. After beginning practice, after what I have no doubt was an A&P during which the vibrations where more localized to an object, there was an intensification to the point of annoyance, and then certain 3D expansions that wouldn't stop. Diagnosed as migraine aura, and lessened with medication. But they are still there when I'm not absorbed in work. The larger warping is also still subtly there when I'm moving through panoramic views, as when driving to work. During meditation, the more or less ever-present vibrations intensify if I open my eyes. Oddly, when they were recently strong, all-inclusive, and nonstop (migraine), I saw them even with eyes closed, in dreams, etc. I'm relaxing, I think, into some acceptance that's not insisting on parsing visual oddities into either physiological or practice-effect categories. Just the not knowing is instructive on some level, I suspect, if I sit with that. |