16Sep14 My Beloved Metta Practice: My Mind:
Time out for some self-enquiry:
- If I am truthfully Allness and Nothingness potential then how do I best loosen from a viewpoint that tells me otherwise and has me thinking about suffering and sensation gratification?
- What is my mind apart from the brain? What am I apart from my mental structure?
- How do I create a mind?
- How do I un-fix myself from my current compulsive and non-life mental structure?
- What is life and what does it do best?
- What postulates/demands did life make that created this 3D reality?
- By what exact formula did life descend into degradation and how can it use that formula to regain the condition of existence called "Nirvana"?
- When does wisdom become more important to me than compulsive egoic pursuits? I.E., "Must know/must be known".
- How do I resolve the conflicts within and with my own mental reality, much less with others?
Big Note to Self: When upset
do not dive into 6-directions re "The Mind". First, take the edge off the stress by placing around me images of "nice" things, or by walking around and looking at and touching things until the stress bleeds off. THEN AND ONLY THEN dive into "The Mind". Always end "The Mind" exercise by replacing any lost significances with significances of my own creation. Lesson learned. Yawn.
Observations of my current mental case: There are two overwhelming incidents which I attach a great deal of significance to. One is this lifetime and it can still be re-stimulated by interactions in the current environment. Once that is re-stimulated it throws me back to an incident that occurred before there were bodies, involving self separating something out from self, and that is where the basic goal set of "To Know ..." is still very hot and active with a great deal of intense negative emotion, including apathy and catatonia, and non-life thoughts, and on the flip side some "godly" emotions/thoughts/sensations (love, joy, ecstasy) that stick me into wanting to re-live past experiences -- stuck in past pleasure moments...delusional to the dual nature of this universe and what I really am.
The trick is to let go of the importances I hold onto within these two incidents; importances are always determined by my postulates that contain a "must" or "must not", especially when they are butted up against each other and carry equal weight: "I must create a new creation/I must not create a new creation". "I must have a body/I must not have a body". "I must know Joe/I must not know Joe".
My current important postulate re resolution of my mental case is "To square everything away with love ", which was Lester Levenson's goal when he was told he would die. No more non-life inclinations towards myself or others. The stuck incident this lifetime carried intense anger, hatred, self-destruction, degradation -- the whole gamut of negative, non-life mind-set
and a beautiful near-death-out-of-body experience/sensation. A double whammy. Thus I do mostly Metta practice and have come to love this practice more than any other.
Rules of Current Metta Practice:- Choose a general topic of address -- in this case the entity I call "my mind".
- Check self and make sure I'm entering the sitting with a positive attitude, not upset; if upset, do positive process.
- While doing core practice bleed off emotions/sensations/feelings just enough to locate and run the underlying postulate(s); remain passively open to whatever the mind presents.
- Locate and "run" the underlying postulate(s) using a repeating technique, i.e., "I must not know Joe ... I must not know Joe .... " until no more change -- no more phenomenon -- occurs.
- Check if it is okay to end the core exercise by asking self: "How does your mind seem to you now?"
- Always run a positive process before, during, and after running a process that is likely to bring up and release stuff, and especially when I feel like I'm getting in over my head.
- Always run the core practice for another too - the viewpoint of another being - as if it were my own (I'm still working this out). Follow the rules of doing the positive process also.
- Failure to follow through with ample positive process can send me crashing and then not wanting to do the core Metta practice for days.
Other Necessary Practices Towards Vanishing the Mind:Bring up past events of the day at the end of the day until no more "energy" or stuck attention on anything that occurred that day and they can be filed into the past where they belong and I am sitting in serenity re day's events.
Continue working with partner on clearing own mind of compulsions re "To Eat..." and "To Taste..." to better work with others on these issues.
Live life watchfully and wisely and let it prove you. :-)
End of Notes.
Start of Metta Practice:Create/image something/someone I like and put it all around me
- smiling eyes; gives me deep satisfaction
Have s'one else create/image and put it all around me
- s'one sitting
"Take your mind and put it above you"- yawns, fleeting thoughts, scenes, etc.
- "To reason" 1175-1225; Middle English resoun, reisun (noun) < Old French reisun, reson < Latin ration- (stem of ratio).
- "I must reason" -- it is a bit of a lie in order to keep an interaction ongoing because in truth there is no reason except, "it seems like a good idea at the time"
- "I must not reason" -- I hate it when people can't be reasoned with, can't see the rationale, the logic -- they want what they want when they want it and they can't see the long term consequences. People cannot reason very well through pain and suffering and they will take drugs with a page full of contraindications as a palliative instead of resolving the root cause. Without reason people create solutions that create more problems, that add to the complexity and degradation of life.
- I see how I twist myself into a knot; therefore to love, to have compassion, to allow one to create their own experience, to allow one to know or to not know is the higher ground.
- I agree to allow one to create an experience of being dictated to by his compulsions, his thirst for sensation -- I have no need to get into a games condition with that person
- With myself, I find I generally enjoy being reasoned with, but not its negative, i.e., feeling "mindfucked".
- A "must know" personality would reason differently than a "must not be known" personality
- The aim of my Metta activity is to remove the "must-ness" and "must not -ness" so that interactions become more fun, or easy to let go of.
- "All your viewpoints are mine" :-))
How does The Mind seem to you now? Less fixated on need to employ reason which led to frustration and negative mind-set.
Positive Imaging for self
Positive Imaging for another
Another's Mind 6-D:yawns
he asks, "what am I?"
Positive ProcessEnd of Sit