Eric M W:
Your experience sounds very promising. There are a few things that really help to "diagnose" SE, especially considering this is an internet forum and therefore it is a limited way of communicating.
Have you noticed any more blips or discontinuities? What happens if you incline your mind towards one?
Is there any sense of cycling?
Change in perspective holding. Still no blips or discontinuties. Tried to incline my mind towards a blip....nothing happened.
About cycling, yesterday I thought I was in a&p, but not sure.
Yesterday something happened. All day long there was "building up concentration". I could easily "see" impermanence or no self at will. At night, before sleep, concentration was "solid", rock solid stillness of mind, like I could not handle that much concentration.
Woke up in the middle of the night (2am) and the mind start feeling like "posibilities", like some things that you normaly cant change can.
There was no deep fear, no sense of being with somebody, just this "will energy".
Began to meditate, tried to shift the "will power" to metta (didnt work, at least not completely), then made some resolutions, then focus on the breath and the body. I do have a glass of water with me and I could hear a movement, like a drop of water in it (at least I think so).
The thing is, I had the "fruition like" certainty that things that arent so rational are possible. Like, "I dont understand how it is happenning but it is happening". No rational things include: voices, future, doing things to others, etc. I was really freaked out.
Didn't sleep all night long. In the morning I slept two hours (very, very deep rest) and I woke with a kind of hangover. Like drained but not rested. I still have this headache.
Now concentration is building again (and now I'm not so sure thats a good thing). I can feel the stillness, "moving".
The worst of all is that you would think that with this much concentration, jhana would be a piece of cake, but for some reason I can't do the pleasure thing, like it doesn't feel right.