| | Good morning, Hugh. My time stamp says you posted this at 4:32 am. A great way to start the day.
I have been likewise feeling rather flat and realized it could be the result of systematically killing my thirst for sensation coupled with not quite enough metta or creative visualization.
Could it be that the things we used to "get off on" just don't do it for us quite the same way? Why, I can't even get up a good craving for chocolate anymore since I did some insight into it -- took it apart I did.
However, when I go into thankfulness, that has certainly increased and expanded to being thankful for my whole life -- with tears still streaming down my cheek. It also finally occurred to me to ask my "astralized" mom for forgiveness, when I kept thinking she should be anytime now asking me for forgiveness. Relationships are starting to become more important than the diminishing love of the quest for sensational desires. I actually have a scaled chart of sensations that is being checked off.
"How does life seem to you now?" is one of my self-enquiry questions when I feel funky.
I am demanding of my sit time that I get this funky feeling resolved -- or else I would question my practice, I suppose as you are.
kind regards, colleen |