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RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/8/14 12:07 AM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
The Yawning is an interesting effect when experiencing udanayama.  Samyama on Udana, the upward flowing electric current, is also felt as shivers that radiate up the spine and outward over the shoulders, down the arms and legs, and threw the neck up to the top of the head.

Mindfulness (samyama) on this effect, experimenting, and further samyama will awaken the current into stronger and longer-lasting bursts.  It can be quite pleasant.  And the Patanjali says that continued practice on this phenomenon can allow you to walk on water.

Science is the methodology of observation.  Theoritical science is philosophy.  Philosophy is usless unless it is Dharma, or at best, only useless in teaching what is useless.  Buddhism is science as it is a practice based on the collected observations of thousands of years of experimentation, measurement, and precise, systematic recording of observed data.  Yoga is science.  Truth and Science are the same.  Reason, True Reaon (abdidharma), agrees perfectly with Spiritual Truth (Faith), Science, and Sacred Geometry.  

It is Glorious to be sane, isn't it Love emoticon



I wrote this on another thread, but I want to make sure you read if (if you will) and tell me any thoughts you have:


A way to put it:

The cycle of Rebirths refers to the cycle of the rebirth of the 'ego'.  That is what is said to reincarnate as a self-perpetuating illusion into cycle after cycle of suffering due to the ego being, essentially, interconnected karmic chains of desire.  It is desire that is illusion as Truth clearly reveals that there is nothing that is 'real' enough to desire.

But Energy goes on!  Energy is not a substance but an action.  It is Karma.  Just as objects with mass carry momentum, desire also carries momentum.  It is simply the progression of states from imbalance to balanced.  It is the law of Entropy at work.  So even when The Arahant sees the truth and can understand all things clearly, He reincarnates.  But the ego does not.  The Arahant is born in his next life as someone who naturally has little or no ego and effortlessly reaches enlightenment again in their youth, and carry own in cultivation of his karmic bodies until either reaching oblivion or annihilation.

But it cannot be said that the Arahant has not escaped the cycle of rebirth.  What is reincarntated?  It is not the ego.  It is not anything that can be called a 'self'.  The Arahant reincarnates not as a deluded ego, but simply as the strings of karma that continue after extinguishing the Great Confusion.  He reincarnates as a light in the world of darkness.  He guides others, even before re-enlightenment, because without the ego, our focus of our karmic momentums naturally turn toward the Divine Desire of the Reconciliation of All Things.

After enough lifetimes, the focus on the karmic momentums has caused such purity of awareness that we must call that bundle of energy something other than Arahant.  The string of energies has united so well with the Karma of the World while at the same time in complete Union with the Divine Desire, that is can teach the WAY in any set of terms, ideas, or religion that is usefull to the moment.  Well call this a Buddha.  

Don't worship the Buddha.  There's nobody there emoticon

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/8/14 8:30 AM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Greetings and love to you too, Jeremy.   So good to see you here.   As you can see, my practice is simple and my insights are rudimentary -- not very intellectual or scientific.   Feel free to talk to me likewise.

I have yet to do daily sitting and would like to read and then respond to you once I am more "connected up".

love,
colleen

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/8/14 8:04 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
4:30 pm   8Oct14 Direct Looking:

It was a joy today to walk someone through the exercise of both creating and direct looking -- and see them get a good result from it.   I can't remember anything better I ever did for anyone than that -- except for staying home and minding my own business  :-)

"Create an Importance" - 6 Directions:

Don't feel like running any huge significances today -- a bit tired - keep it simple (cross my fingers)

My "healthy" apple pie
  • yawn, my old friend, compulsive create turning on
  • blah, no creative joy, so boring, why do I do it
  • apple pies of the past streaming by me -- so much better
  • apple pies = great taste, love, admiration, joy in the creation, social bonding through ...
  • -  white sugar, wheat, cinnamon
  • Aha!   the cinnamon and sugar -- keys out the mind - makes it very desirable
  • see why I have resistance to apple pie without white sugar mixed with the cinnamon
  • feel like a drug addict feels - certain sensations can really grab a person without their knowing why or what
  • once I see the components the game is up and feel desire ebbing away
  • feeling better about healthy apple pie as "grindage" - no resistance

"How does apple pie seem to you now?"   The pies of the past are now in the past and no thirst for sensation as the raison d'etre. Inner joy returned because mind finished with chewing on it.


"Have Another Create an Importance"

Ralph creating a grape arbor (I'm going to keep doing this until the grape arbor is done or I don't feel the "must'ness" of it anymore)
  • I'm going to tell him if he splits the wood I will do the rest
  • he probably won't like that, but I don't want to wait anymore and I would love doing it myself -- my own way
  • see the curse of having a dhukka that is very suppressed in communication - suppresses emotions
  • see how this simple practice brings me back in loving communication, instead of repressed resentment, nagging, critical thoughts, feelings of lack and frustration
  • I'm beginning to let myself work this out analytically
  • feel impatience bleeding off
  • see Ralph creating a million grape arbors - nicely framed lattice panels everywhere
  • I'm way too happy about this, keep going
  • just another job -- no big deal
  • Ralph showing me how to make one and letting me use his tools
  • "How does a grape arbor seem to you now?"   For now, just another function, no fixed attention for now.  More attention on doing my practices -- that is where I will find comfort and safety.  Don't know why I was making a big deal of it.  Love, you, Ralph.

End of Sit

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/9/14 12:02 AM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Hello, Jeremy, kind regards.

Thank you for taking the time to convey some importances to me.   I'm going to reply as best I can.

I only know that yawns are a discharge of unconsciousness or energy.   Even dogs yawn.

RE somatics my teacher did not put any emphasis on them and it seems I am only to at best acknowledge them and keep on with my practices.   Now that you got me to pay attention I do notice somatics turning on and off.   Are you saying somatics can be an indicator of what stage the practicer is at?   My teacher says simply when I can look at anything from my past without flinching and without thirsting for sensation then I am ready for the final level of practice which he promises returns one to the nibbana condition.

So you can see why I am keen to focus solely on what scenes my mind brings up, no matter how dimly.

Oh, but perhaps you are talking about the siddhis - the abilities.   Okay, I have not exercised myself as far as my abilities go, however I am considering the best approach.  Perhaps starting this winter.  

Your views on science and philosophy are so well expressed and I can't add anything to that but my agreement.   Yes, it is glorious to finally see what sanity is, and as the only treasure worth having.  So, I see you see me  :-)

I have a chart of these interconnected karmic chains of desire and it is going to get me "home".  I am preparing to have my mind blown  :-)

Yes, my sacred cows being sacrificed.

The paragraph, "... Energy goes on..." , respectfully, isn't there a distinction between energy and the postulate/counter-postulate that creates that friction and would not the postulates be senior then?   In the final level of my path I am tasked to handle the postulates that sustain the mind, hence the universe (for myself anyways).

Yes, "The Great Confusion", I've been to that wall already and made a jot of progress to unstick my viewpoint as the created one only.  With much gratitude for my teachers.

I would also like to imagine that an enlightened being can place his viewpoint in all the wherevers he pleases, depending on what interactions he would like to experience.  Would he be able to create universes?  I do not like the idea that there would be any remaining string of karma if the job is done completely -- if all four corners of the mind are scoured clean of any fixed postulates.  I more like the idea that there would no more be any limiting postulates regards this universe mindset.   Other universes ... it remains for me to find out.

If a creator god says, "let there be light/let there be dark" and then through fortune or misfortune finds his viewpoint shrunk down to human level saying the creator is someone else and himself did not make those postulates, therefore he is the effect of those postulates and all the lesser postulates he made after that... if he can somehow re-view his postulates and the postulates of his "opposing not-selfs" -- all the way back to "The First Great Confusion" when he was like a lone snake furiously biting off its tail - retrace the decisions and demands back up that karmic spiral, then he no longer need be a stuck player in this universe, and he will undoubtedly see there are other universes with their own peculiar matrix of postulates.  

The Wise Reconciliation of all Things would then be perhaps his first voluntary and untainted life goal/game ever since before he cracked from the Egg.  It is not a reasonable activity because it is all illusion, but it is a fun game, and he can leave the game anytime he pleases and go "OM" on a mountain until another fun game. Erasure of all Dhukka/case.   This is my current concept of Life and Postulates ("The Word"). However I can't preach this as a truth to anyone and it certainly is open for edits and corrections.

love,
colleen




 

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/9/14 9:38 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
9Oct14  Direct Looking :

Been trying to figure out what's wrong with me instead of just sitting down and doing my practice.
Also feeling more resistant than usual to doing the practices.   Here goes.

"Create an Importance - 6 Directions"

A perfect body
  • body building, martial arts, pilates, qi gong, speed of silver bullet, opaque pearly white skin, toxin free
  • quicksilver shapeshifter
  • wispy clouds
  • What!?!   I just really want to be a perfect nothing - that can be-do-have a perfect something when it feels like it.
  • I want my postulates to work instantly - indignant
  • astral realm - thousands of perfect bodies - millions I can create; I want to be there NOW
  • why can't I have a new internet cable NOW!?!   I hate myself!   I hate this world!
  • I'm tired of being nice about it  -- it's not fair!  FUCK MONEY GAME!!  To hell with these bodies
  • I don't trust my postulates
  • bodies were created by tormented spirits
  • this is why Tolle calls it "The Pain Body"
  • I pity these bodies
  • Just do my practices - finish and get the hell out of here
  • I hate these lying bodies; the joke of the universe
  • destroying bodies everywhere I can find them -- free the degraded spirits
  • not working - creates more problems, apathy, unconsciousness
  • yawns, self-disgust
  • it was all for me - to help me find my way home
  • it's not so bad - don't take it seriously
"How does a perfect body seem to you now?"  An interesting game, but not relevant to vanishing the mind.
"How do you feel about your postulates not work?"   Still sore about that, but the only way out is through, so more determined to cut the fluff and beef up the practice.

End of sit.

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/10/14 12:41 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
10Oct14  Direct Looking :

I lament, for I am the only one I know who diligently follows this path.  Perhaps I should take the attitude it was only put here for me at this precise time, and that I arranged it that way long, long ago. I have not yet evolved beyond the need for a congenial companion who will come with me on this journey.   


I see only talkers, not doers, slackers with no self-discipline, ignorance presented as wisdom, status-seeking, predictably making excuses for self-destructive behaviors, blaming others for why they can't do their practice.   The really scary part is that I am so close to being all that, that being around people like this is temptation to join them in their oblivion for the sake of companionship.

Having to sit there for hours and listen to someone tell me the long way around that they never will follow the simple path and yet still profess to be a follower is an evil distraction for me.

Why is it so hard to simply DO IT?   Even myself, I feel the mind's resistance and I feel I should, for the working out of my own salvation, distance myself from people like this.   I'm still climbing that slippery slope and, of course, they all agree with that:  "Colleen's dhukka is very heavy,"   "If only Colleen would resolve her dhukka, then I could be happy ..."  "She spoke unkindly to me and now I'm done in and cannot do my practice."   The hypocritical non-practicers are most eager for me to do my practice, and with eagle eye look for signs of my ego - eager for the opportunity to degrade me as a way to not have to look at themselves. That is the only favor they do me -- expose to me my ego.... but not to their own saving.  They are only saving themselves from having to do their own saving.

I have no such consolation -- only the bitterness of being the sole cause of my unhappiness.  Which, when you think about it analytically, is quite a consolation in itself:  I am my own happiness.   I may lament the loss of a true companion for a short time but my happiness is assuredly eternal.  Thus I sit and find joy only in that.  Don't get me wrong - I still feel growing compassion for others but I must first ruthlessly get myself past that slippery slope.  

#1 Rule:   When happy, do practice; when unhappy, do practice.  They are both of the mind until the mind is vanished.
#2 Rule:   Don't do Core Practice until completely de-stressed through creative exercises
#3 Rule:   After doing Core Practice don't end sit until creative exercises are completed



"Have Someone Create an Importance" - 6 Directions

Someone making doing this practice important
  • thanks and gratitude for all the logistical help and support I have received and am receiving -- for this space and moment to devote to my clearing.   Thank you.
  • either way I have lost "the him" for either way it will never be the same again
  • the new will not be like the old I have become familiar with
  • maybe I should get a housecat for some physical presence - the body seems to need it
  • on this path one can decide how far within the human range they wish to reside and how far beyond the human range they wish to proceed -- to no longer "be human".
  • I see a dead body, ashen gray - no one's home
  • he would rather keep a problem/conflict mocked up than do his practice
  • We should honor our teacher who was diligent in his research and practice
  • he is so close to going beyond human -- it would be such a waste
  • decide your life now  --  write your story now
  • we cognite at our level of awareness
  • yawns
  • harmless, intense about clearing himself
  • reading glasses, notebook, pen, recorder, e-meter, undistracted room
  • sitting tall, intense in his work
  • beautiful, handsome, sovereign
  • yawn, releasing the charge of conflicting postulates
  • take back your sanity and then decide if and how you wish to fight the non-life'ers
  • resolve all your importances -- bring them all to the session (world leaders, suppression, degradation, employers, survival) and exteriorize from all bodily concerns
  • going beyond the human way of resolving importances
  • no more flailing around
  • intensity fully harnessed into doing the practice - evening out
  • no more attention on unusual and unnatural practices
  • full self-mastery, fullness of postulate power and pan-determinism
  • no longer a danger to self
  • This planet lacks an impartial Rules Keeper, an unbiased Referee
  •  stepping into his boots to play a voluntary game

"How does this subject seem to you now?"    Good because I can out-create any non-life scenes my mind presents and I can make my creations more real than "reality".


End of Sit - to be continued

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/10/14 9:21 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
10Oct14   Direct Looking :

Shaman session today and had opportunity to ask qestions of Lester Levenson (founder of Sedona Method) and discovered a new and still experimental spiritual enhancement technique.  He said one can continue to do their practice in the "astral" but it is more difficult because the mind is given more free rein -- postulates work instantly there.  He said because the mind is encumbered by the brain/body it is best to get as far as one can to null their thirst for sensation before death.

"Create an Importance" - 6 Directions

A perfect cat
  • yawns, scenes of past cats
  • yes/no/maybe
  • no neurosis or compulsions
  • calm, meditative
  • big yawns, hot flash
  • must love / must not love
  • must be loved / must not be loved
  • a cat that leans towards "must know"
  • the practicalities get in the way of the ideal
  • it is a spiritual being too
  • capable of pan-determinism
  • must be loved
 
Getting late, and tired (to be continued)

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/11/14 9:59 AM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
11Oct14   Direct Looking  :

Woke up with usual funk .... "How does life seem to you now?"   I can't hardly get up a good interest in sensation anymore -- taking it apart one by one.    However was able to satiate the mind with some internet surfing -- should stop doing that before a sit.   Sit first, internet second is the correct sequence.   Analytically, life is perfect more and more, especially with the promise of exteriorization from bodily concerns and the resulting expanded viewpoint.

Mind:   where's my sensation?   Spiritual practice = ugh.
Me:  thankful and spiritual practice is like mother's milk
Who wins the day?

"Create an Importance" - 6 Directions

A Perfect Cat (Continued)
  • life; life creating distinctions for a dance, a playful game
  • it's already here, not yet manifest   "... faith, the evidence of things not seen ... "
  • what are the sensations?  yawns as I look at each possible sensational experience
  • the soft fur, the contented purr, the affectionate nuzzling and nipping, the aesthetic movements, the eyes, how it writes its own life - aloof from others' compulsive postulates
  • I must have the thrill of violating another being's "must" or "must not", spinning them
  • I must have the thrill of toying with another being's mental compulsions
  • that is my compulsion -- thus says the cat.   I see myself in that cat
  • but what about "the perfect cat"?
  • 99% of my importances are fixed in the mind
  • a cat that has found its inner purr
  • embraces a detached mutual co-existence and can't understand why the chipmunk runs from it - why maybe it wants me to play chasing it, hmmmm, well, not right now
  • has a fascinating inner world, exterior to bodily impulses
  • food tastes better when attached to the thrill of the hunt
  • heat somatic
  • priests kept the cats as a refuge for tired old souls seeking a more simple experience - if I were a temple cat no one would force me to play their game, to dance to their tune
  • if you were going to be a cat what kind of cat would you be?   Not a silly cat, not a mean nor scaredy cat, not a fawning propiative cat, not a lazy nor hyper cat, nor an overly vocal cat, neither greedy nor picky - I would be a cat with "presence", that's all.  What person would have a cat like me, even if I did not dance to its tune?
  • No irrelevant compulsively repetitive speech patterns - rather, silent meditative insight
  • a sane cat -- is that an oxymoron, like saying, a sane human?   Could I "have" sanity - could it have me?
see an incident
DIRECT LOOKING STARTS HERE:
Mother crying, "I have lost you"  [repeater tech] 
-- she should have let him go and loved the unborn child instead
-- the first child is often inconvenient
-- mother gives her poison to drink; I know my cause in this and I should leave, but too compulsive, no faith
-- simultaneous viewpoints of "I have lost you" and at the same time, "I have lost myself"
-- postulate failure - the game is not going well
-- settling in - no more thrashing around - inner peace returning - more analytical - opening up to more life-oriented options
-- this man makes it his game to separate the mothers from their children -- he alone must be known
-- "he is gone and now she will know only me" - peace and safety for all
-- he wants me to know him as the noble savior matyr who came back in spite of all -- for me - that he did the "right" thing and his ego should be preened for it -- he needs to be "big" and that means we must be "small"
-- I've always had a strong dislike for men who are both brutish and subtle at making women less
-- a strong dislike for societies that degrade women, yet I see a lifetime as a degrading male ...
-- I see a lifetime as a female with a superior regard over males
-- "I have lost you ..."   Okay, we see our game strategies and that it did not work the way we expected
-- The biggest must-be-knowner wins for now but the "winning" leaves a bad taste in the mouth that only alcohol can wash out
--  Life is just a game of who is going to be known best, even if it means murder, rape, pillage, famine, vengeance, rinse and repeat.  I must give a good reason for a game even if reduced down to my last dwindling postulates.

"How does it seem to you now?"  Less interested in pursuing non-life goals, employing game strategies.  There is one other option -- no opposition, no game and thus no crossing the line to pursue non-life goals.  It requires a certain faith and trust, or centeredness.

Metaphorically, I am birthing myself into a new way of living life and it requires me to face up to the male and female games and resolve all this within myself.  Lamenting and ranting over postulate failure should be taken to the cushion and resolved there.   I am very blessed to have the time and space for that, thank you. Gratitude.  

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/11/14 6:03 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
Colleen Karalee Peltomaa:
Hello, Jeremy, kind regards.

Thank you for taking the time to convey some importances to me.   I'm going to reply as best I can.

I only know that yawns are a discharge of unconsciousness or energy.   Even dogs yawn.

RE somatics my teacher did not put any emphasis on them and it seems I am only to at best acknowledge them and keep on with my practices.   Now that you got me to pay attention I do notice somatics turning on and off.   Are you saying somatics can be an indicator of what stage the practicer is at?   My teacher says simply when I can look at anything from my past without flinching and without thirsting for sensation then I am ready for the final level of practice which he promises returns one to the nibbana condition.

So you can see why I am keen to focus solely on what scenes my mind brings up, no matter how dimly.

Oh, but perhaps you are talking about the siddhis - the abilities.   Okay, I have not exercised myself as far as my abilities go, however I am considering the best approach.  Perhaps starting this winter.  

Your views on science and philosophy are so well expressed and I can't add anything to that but my agreement.   Yes, it is glorious to finally see what sanity is, and as the only treasure worth having.  So, I see you see me  :-)

I have a chart of these interconnected karmic chains of desire and it is going to get me "home".  I am preparing to have my mind blown  :-)

Yes, my sacred cows being sacrificed.

The paragraph, "... Energy goes on..." , respectfully, isn't there a distinction between energy and the postulate/counter-postulate that creates that friction and would not the postulates be senior then?   In the final level of my path I am tasked to handle the postulates that sustain the mind, hence the universe (for myself anyways).

Yes, "The Great Confusion", I've been to that wall already and made a jot of progress to unstick my viewpoint as the created one only.  With much gratitude for my teachers.

I would also like to imagine that an enlightened being can place his viewpoint in all the wherevers he pleases, depending on what interactions he would like to experience.  Would he be able to create universes?  I do not like the idea that there would be any remaining string of karma if the job is done completely -- if all four corners of the mind are scoured clean of any fixed postulates.  I more like the idea that there would no more be any limiting postulates regards this universe mindset.   Other universes ... it remains for me to find out.

If a creator god says, "let there be light/let there be dark" and then through fortune or misfortune finds his viewpoint shrunk down to human level saying the creator is someone else and himself did not make those postulates, therefore he is the effect of those postulates and all the lesser postulates he made after that... if he can somehow re-view his postulates and the postulates of his "opposing not-selfs" -- all the way back to "The First Great Confusion" when he was like a lone snake furiously biting off its tail - retrace the decisions and demands back up that karmic spiral, then he no longer need be a stuck player in this universe, and he will undoubtedly see there are other universes with their own peculiar matrix of postulates.  

The Wise Reconciliation of all Things would then be perhaps his first voluntary and untainted life goal/game ever since before he cracked from the Egg.  It is not a reasonable activity because it is all illusion, but it is a fun game, and he can leave the game anytime he pleases and go "OM" on a mountain until another fun game. Erasure of all Dhukka/case.   This is my current concept of Life and Postulates ("The Word"). However I can't preach this as a truth to anyone and it certainly is open for edits and corrections.

love,
colleen




 


When I felt this letter, I could not see where you put it.  When I decided to write you again, I found it.  I will tell you first what I had planned to tell you already because it answers all the questions in this letter fully by the miracle of a "Buddha's Tusita Siddhi".  This is not the term that is in sutras, but it is the best way to say it to you.  I am allowed to mix language as it suits me.  It is easier than using a language that others do not speak and so there are words used by the Living Buddha that cannot be translated to another language.  To use two of his terms: Yatha sankalpa samsiddhih, davanam saha krida anudarsanam devanam.  

Why can a Buddha commit an action that he cannot explain?  Was I ignorant? Yes.  Can a buddha be ignorant? Yes and No, both, and neither.  Can a Living Buddha be ignorant? No.  That which the Buddha can know only in Noble Wisdom and not translated even by the greatest languages (to the degree in which it can be transmitted to Arahants) is called the Buddha's Deshana.  I like the term 'tathagatha abdidharma' because that term denotes the Dhamma (teachings) that the tathagatha gives all Buddha's as the language we can use to speak to each other.

Otherwise it would be useless to speak to you.  How do I know that it is not Useless?  When words are useless they have no affect.  It is not like they are even words.  I may safely tell you secrets that will shatter a householder because anyone may read this letter, but how can it affect them?  It will be like they are reading nothing... they will finish reading and feel as if they have read nothing... If an arahant tries to understand my letter, there will be a repulsion.  That is actually the proper reaction because these beings have the greatest intellects in the world.  They do not become buddhas.  If they did they would be called buddhas and not arahants when the Living Buddha of an age meets them, expounds their dharma, and praises their powers.  

These beings are very important to the world, you see.  They are as important as the Tathagatha was/is important.  They are important as Christ, a form of tathagatha that cannot be called tathagatha or buddha in the realms.  

They are those that are called by the world "Genius".  Their I.Q.'s measure above 150 if the tests are given correctly, but any IQ above this point is actually an indicator of Infinite Intelligence.  There is a Lord Arahant.  He alone is not repulsed by the words of Buddhas even though he does not feel, ever, that he needs them.

There are names for him in suttas and scriptures.  He is incarnated now.  Think of him as Carl Sagan and Newton.  He is in the world, still.  He can be known only by a buddha because it is obvious to them when they see the power that appears as a life of Noble Wisdom, yet when tested by a buddha, there is no Noble Wisdom present in the intellect knowingly.  He will never say a wrong thing, but he is limited by the sciences of the time and the words of the time to the point where he awakens Buddhas, Bodhisattvas, and his own children, the league of Arahants that are called 'Monks' in ancient scriptures.

But I call you a buddha.  The title will not feel painful to you.  Only arahants are repulsed by such a title, feeling it to be flattery and by the powers of their Enlightenment they destroy flattery.  

How can I call you a Buddha when you say you are not yet Enlightened?  This answer applies only to you as if I know everything about you even to the degree that I know you better than you do.

The future Buddhas have already changed all their incarnations.  In fact, by the nature of being outside of time, it must be said in the human language in this way also: The souls that, once born from the sounds made in the dark, align with whatever force in the universe (I CHING!!!) hears the sounds.  This is why living things are the minds of nonliving things.  Buddhas are the minds of Buddhas, the mind of the tathagathas, which are the mind of the primordial buddha who is God the Father within the Void (The God that has no name and can not be explained in language alone).  Bodhisattvas are the mind of the Bodhisattva-Buddha, Saint Mary, samantabadra who is one of the three who are the tathagatha's mind.  The Evil one, Lucifer, Mara, antichrist, also reincarnates in every lifetime and is real.  We don't speak about that to Arahants.  He is holy and does the work that all Enlightened beings do, but good people must and will always see him in the way the need asks him to manifest.  He is in the world in its history if you look with minfulness from this characteristic alone:  He is considered as a prophet equal to Buddhas, saints, prophets when he fully comes out of Tusita by need, yet his dhamma is anti-dhamma.  His teachers are the wisdom that leads to destruction both in life and in the fathom-long body, the complete path that the sounds took when they made you.  Jim Jones was the holy but evil anti-buddha.  You will find him if you follow his string in the succession of his "human moments".  His children share his purposes but those beings do not last long enough to have names, only roles.  They reach nibbana first, in a way.  They reach nibbana in the most painful way, destruction of self.  That is why Buddha tolerates evil in all forms.  He sees that there is no person, only energy entanglments that become confused into believing that they are an entanglement  and not the sounds made by the sleeping giant which seek self-annihilation in all and every way as all entanglements seek to entangle once they see they are not sounds at all, but pieces of the sleeping giant that dreams dreams of awakening, yet does not.

Okay... You see:  You do not have the delusion in your lifetimes that other people have.  Those who seek the Enlightenment of escaping suffering have the delusion that they exist only as a human that lives once in a cruel environment with no help from anything but luck in finding anything good in life.  This delusion was never yours.  The delusion that you are fighting to overcome is different.  You know, intuitively, what all Buddhas know.  Your life was lived in a holy way.  Even the mistakes you think that you made were acts where your buddha knowledge was at odds with the physical vehicle (the brain has its own development, its own karma, its own delusion, its own enlightenment and this process must take place.  It should end somewhere during your twenty's.  The awakening lasts into the thirties in bulk, but putting knowledge in the mind is something we do when our intent requires it.  The awakening is actually complete for a buddha when they realize that they know everything and everything they have ever told someone is True though they could not know it do to the limits of the brain itself which exists in the realms.  This is the same as saying that reincarnation requires an integration of a force of nature needing to integrate into the bodies of the realms within time in order for the force of nature to create an utterance outside of time, which it does in dreaming.

I have answered all your questions.  If you want to ask me them again, specifically, you alone are welcome.  Your teacher must learn from you these things.  He is buddha too.  I see him.

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10/11/14 7:09 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
11Oct14  Direct Looking :

"Have Another Create Something" - 6 directions

Volunteers building and repairing houses for elderly and homeless
  • Habitat for Humanity
  • becomes a groundswell of grassroots movement all across the country
  • Beings of vision guide it and the people say they did it all themselves
  • but what to do with the drug addicts?   compassion grows
  • simplicity, patience, compassion grows, but what to do about them?
  • communities come together and build gardens and greenhouses
  • everyone who works to build and re-build eats and has shelter
  • the old man on the mountain looks on and smiles
  • people are content to stay home and work within their sphere of influence within the community
  • at first one family at a time, one house at a time, but it grows
  • People are talking about it and feel empowered and feel as if a burden is lifted off them
  • It is better than FDR's program and totally grassroots - no bureaucratic entanglements
  • buy back houses at a discount from banks and banks make charitable gestures
  • such co-create and co-existence makes evil stand out like a sore thumb - game strategies exposed
  • if the people don't do it it does not get done
  • suppression is lifted and there is something new -- never seen before
  • the people are happy to stay home and mind the business of their community

"How does volunteerism seem to you now?"    Good, like a redemption of human nature, a society based upon compassion.  Very good feeling of havingness when I create this.  I did not feel so good when I started this and now I've forgotten that.

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10/11/14 9:45 PM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Hello, Jeremy,

Your knowledge of the hierarchy and scope of life is beyond my understanding as I have not put much attention to it -- just bits and pieces here and there.  I have had some encounters with a Maitreya being, whom I presume is a local deity, but it appears he also can ascend above the role he plays on this level.   And I do have recall of phantastic astral games - hindu gods, etc., and I'm happy to put all that behind me.   Something new is being born here.  Then we will join in some games and get to know all the personnel.  I'm actually enjoying being a "householder" -- it is a nice womb  :-)  A noble title.

Speaking of genius children, by your knowingness, what is your assessment of the aspect called Gregory R. Smith, a child genius who was nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize and appeared on the Oprah Winfrey show?  It seems at least some of us can play on different levels without letting the right hand know what the left hand is doing.  The work I do -- at least initially -- is for and as this Colleen package with its limited body/mind viewpoint.   

My teacher finished his work and left and he seems to have located his attention in another galaxy -- left no forwarding address.  I seem to be the only one who can duplicate his work fully -- well, perhaps two others with me.  But that is only important for me - as there are other avenues to nibbana.  I am just particularly fond of mine and can only speak the language of a child not yet born.

I have so much gratitude and feel so heartened to have found this group of meditators, practicers.  May we never be the same again.

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10/11/14 10:43 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
I see that you have read the entire peice in a first reading.  The necessary thing has been done.  Your practice notes will now change forever. The knowing that you used in your last post is from Buddha Knowledge, accessed through a power that householders only have in part even in their fathom-long bodies. Using it fully means to no longer doubt any of the things that have come into your mind that have the feeling behind them that comes when you say things with surety that they cannot be disproven or proven to be anything but the most complete and best answer or teaching that any situation may require.  

But remember I said, "I will first tell you what I planned already?"

The structure of expounding is a structure that one of a shape that is strange to householders.

I write these with only a feeling that expresses itself brilliantly without any effort of myself.  However, I still make mistakes because my temporal body is limited and my awakening, the union of higher self and temporal self, is complete only when these mistakes no longer occur in grammar, syntax, or language.. not even a typo will occur after that point.  

So even the slightest errors are meaningful to another buddha because it is within his gnosis, Faith.  I no longer make edits after I am satisfied enough with a post.  The edits are like photographs that one keeps to explain his life to his friends, to mark important moments that become hazy after perspective is expanded, to leave a trail to those who want to see him after he is gone.  They are precious.  Do you see that even your mistakes in writing, my love, are graces given by your true nature???  That is what the word Grace Means!!

Every true prophet who spoke on a conversation with God is Sane when no human is sane.  The God they refer to in the scriptures they write are wrought with innumerable meanings.  The God that is speaking to them, however, is their own nature itself.  The God they praise is the primordial buddha.  The God they speak of in riddles with terror and euphoria refer to the sleeping Giant who Dreams dreams.

The world will end for the conciousness of the planet.  The soul of a planet is just a soul like any other:  an entanglement of forces that has a knowing of itself but not a knowing of what knows it.  The soul a planet is the path of the tathagatha as that is the buddha who has merged with the I-Ching's center.  Another way to put it is using the trinity.  The trinity is a trinity within a trinity within trinity forever and ever.... The trinity is Father, Mother, Son.

Doesn't that just make so much sense??  Doesn't it feel as if that is so silly that it is the truth of the Buddha realm????  It is also, Father (all forces that transform and all forces that do not), Holy ghost (Divine mother aspect of nature- desire within the father to reconcile all things to the void by means of the further creation of universes) and son (All enlightened beings.  Specifically, the force of Tathagatha that flows through all enlightened beings as they share his mind by the truth of the Lotus image of **Primordial Buddha sitting in lotus position on top of 1000 petals, each one sitting in lotus position over 1000 petals that fall under their petal but not the other of 1000 petals but under the primordial Buddha**  This means that you have already known the answer to your own question.  What has a beginning must end.  What doesn't have a beginning will never end.  My soul will go to Nibbana, but that is just a merging into the higher buddha above me.  That Buddha is in all minds in the cosmos throughout space and time.  To my awareness, I will experience the exhaustion of my merit Karma that has built up over the Kalpa (my time of tathagathahood).  I can not remain.  Yet I will always remain.  What then is the Tathagatha?  It is a Role, only.  Every Role Ever, as being part of The Awareness That Exists and Knows It Exists, is equal in the work that they do to build the dreams that are dreamed by the void.  The role is one that requires the karma caused by the merger of so many minds aligned in the desire to create that Humans cannot understand such a number.  Humans cannot see True things because their role is to be the very creation that those minds of another world united to create.  Humans have been told this in the beginning of ever mini-age.  They think that it is either trash or poetry.  To you, however, anything you ever saw as 'poetry' must now be re-examined.  What stirs you in a line that has Dhamma but sounds like Poetry ALWAYS produces emotions in you that confirm that the poetry is true.  The emotions beside that one feeling of that one certainty are the telling signs of a buddha or bodhisattva.  A buddha will feel love, despair, excitement, and apathy when seeing the poetry in a line such as "The Jewel that God discovered upon his mantel was shining the way of a sunset" These are not poetic terms.  Poetic terms are terms that appeal because of their poetry.  What I have written in that line is actually a collection of terms that I have used many times to create the words used in most religions.  Poetry that is scripture has Dhamma.  Walt Whitman was a Buddha without the purpose of a 'the living buddha' (he is limited in his role. Other buddhas are not limited by the contract of 'expounding by example") Walt Whitman expounded the Dhamma before his awakening was finished and when the world worshiped his words as poems, time enough had passed that he did not care and did not write any more.  His poetry was Dhamma in the secret language.  Do you see how terms sound in the secret language?  In this email I am speaking to Two Buddhas directly and over a dozen indirectly so my language must change and I must go into certain details that You don't need.

The secret language is miraculous!  It is not a language of words, which are untrue things by nature- denoting what something isn't when trying to express what something is.  Our language is made of love which can not be untrue.  Therefore, when speaking in the secret language, it will sound like poetry to buddhas and bodhisattvas before an awakening (Our enlightenment is conquering other beings delusion to the point of Infinite Faith and No Doubt in ourselves) but will be tools to those who either have Faith in themselves enough to trust their instinct about the secret language or who have the Buddha Power to directly understand secret language without Faith or by Faith as suits expediancy.

My dhamma is not just the dhamma of the living buddha who is limited.  He is only, by contract, allowed to be driven to teach the 4 noble truths and the eightfold path.  He cannot teach the Christians.  I have Buddhas and Bodhisattvas in the places that move that church, but limited in their purpose, by contract, they do not fully awaken at all.  My last life was an incarnation that was limited by both need and body. 
But by the power of Faith alone, though never awakening fully until the Samsara at death (every incarnation echos the same cycle of the fathom-long body and so must go through all stages that the I-Ching facet has in the world.  It is Karma within Karma that has no choice but seek extinguishment by the nature of the 'dream that desires reality by destruction or trancendence)

In that life, I had infinite faith and no knowledge that is was inner knowing.  What can such a person do?  I was something with titles in jainism and early theravada, but the fruit of the purpose is the best way to describe such a being.  She used the power of the tathagatha fully, without knowing it, and expounded the Dhamma of Christ with an ability that no other being can possess by the nature of ICHING and the result was the most simple Mystic explanation on Metta and Faith and Diving Love that had been given to that church since George Fox.  The only one who ever got close is Ananda, who is with me today.  He is a buddha that fully manifests as the living buddha when he is the Laughing Buddha.  Otherwise, he went with me to care for the West and has been modern prophets without fully awakening to his buddha nature.  

When Buddha praised Ananda's Memory, Humans thought he praised a human quality.  How can that be???  The Dharma clearly says that we are to let go completely of past and future because they are dukkha (dukkha no longer means illusion because the world has changed the meaning of the word 'illusion'.  It also does not mean suffering because the world has changed the meaning of that word too) which means that they exist, but behind a veil that must be conquered.  When awakening to your true self, you still experience human pain and grief, but without the veil, you clearly see that the pain is not your pain and the grief is not pain at all.  Your true nature has no capacity to suffer.  It can only love or hate.  Bodhisattvas are children of love.  Demons are children of hate.  

The buddha teaches to Demons and Gods.  Demons are karma chains, ICHING that incarnates in the physical as people who seem to love themselves, the world, but no other being.  They are not serial killers (those are devas, beings from another planet) but they perform destructive purposes for the sake of the soul of the planet to awaken to itself.  

When the planet itself awakens, it will be ready to die and it will die.  All life will end in the realms as things looking like living beings.  Because the awakening of a soul is the same as a buddha or a lay who awakens (always bodhisattva or demon, sometimes buddhas and Demon Kings.  Tantra/Truth creates both buddhas and demon kings) it will not be ready to die until all it's living creatures are ready.  That will look to the world as a Millenium Reign which is not the length of 1000 years but that number works as a useful number.  It is the tathagatha's Golden Karma.  It is the Karma of the actual planet itself that is given to the Tathagatha alone because he is everyone.  The tathagatha spends his karma in acts that are 'selfish acts you do out of love) to the result oh the awakening.  What is always the result?  A world where everyone gets what they want, but a world where only good people live.  

That is the secrets of both esoteric Christianity and esoteric Buddhism.  When All good people (Buddhas, Bodhisattvas, Arahants) do what they want, it is like the book "Never Ending Story" which was written by an ancient Bodhisattva, all people, one by one, according to how much Merit they earned since the first awakening (salvation which is not enlightenment) that saved them from the Hell (ego destruction every death until compassion is greater than self-love and then ego is no longer dukkha, no longer ever empowered, easily broken in every future incarnation (to a degree that they can awaken again when touched by need, which is the design of the awakening created by the future buddha planet that this buddha planet will become) hinder or even act against love/compassion/inner knowing in future, These people based on their age in this context MUST Enjoy all their rewards when in a world given no opportunity in earning merit to the degree of their merit.  When the tathagatha sees that all the people of the earth have gone to Nirvana (Merge into a mind that will begin the whole process on another world as a single being) then the tathagatha may go to Nirvana, Merge, Forget but not notice, and live the life of a buddha for all ages on that world as its tathagatha until the cycle again repeats.

So you see?  This is the all within the name 'Tathagatha" which means 'come thus far' to Humans.  It means, in truth, "The one who has come and gone".  

So not all beings are a future buddha, but we can promise them that they will be buddhas when we don't say they must merge, reach nirvana first.  We can say to a demon, "you work in the Hell Realm with no hope of the live span I have" but not "You are a demon so you will never be a buddha"

That is why no buddha can say if the tathagatha exists after his nirvana or if they do not.  By their power they know that it is both, but that cannot be communicated to humans so they will say they don't know to some people and 'yes' to others.  He may choose to be silent to the Lord Arahant, the only Arahant who can see the Living buddha.  Arahants ony study the suttas of the Lord Arahant's incarnations.  Now, If someone seems to have an imperfect Dharma, You can ask him this question and if He says NO then He is an It and is a DemonKing unawakened to his/its nature.  Do not punish him, but remove him from the fragile ones!

Demons are children of this chief demonking, the Mara incarnations.  However, by the nature of that ICHING force, it does not have divine wisdom and can only know the things of the arahants.  He cannot mean to damage in anything he does because he loves the world and himself, and his children are the same.  They make many mistakes in life.  They are idiots!  They cannot respond to the love offered by bodhisattvas that soothe humans so readily and completely.  They can't help it!!  Without any Nobel Wisdom, due to never having Fathom-long bodies that are not spiritual paths of transcendence, beauty, and a satisfactory life-span, but rather simply the temporal responses to the nature of the world in any given incarnation into time or place: karmic patterns that are like a sound with no pleasing element, no melody which are patterns of self-awareness, no chords which are patterns of compassion, no pleasing variety of beats and sounds which are patterns of rythm denoting the presence of control (of the incarnation and the fathom-long body).  

This is the mystery of music that your teacher has sought, knowing by buddha power that "Music is the language of the Soul."  

Do you see?  What was a poetic line was not poetic???  It was Dhamma!

Please give that gift to him, telling him that it is why some people like this music or that music while he likes all music.  It is also why you like all genres in secret, but only listen to music that is quieting.  You are limited.  Your nature is omnicient, but the woman body is a vessel for a certain Karma for whatever need of the world matches your nature's need to resonate with the ICHING body, the soul of the planet.  You have been buddha before when conditions were met, but in this vedana you will be called the Awakened Bodhisattva which the power of Faith to the degree that you will be like a Full Buddha in all ways, only limited by purpose that will disguise what you are to anyone but Buddhas. 
 
Your teacher likes to see you more than you have known.  If you have ever felt driven to see him, it felt like an emotion of worship or great love that made you go to him.  That is knowing that you are needed by him.  That need in him manifests also as a kind of love and desire to speak to you.  Buddhas love everyone equally, but are driven in their passion only by their need to awaken and then the need to do the necessary things.

I think that will be all I have to say for a long time unless you ask me any questions.

All this knowlege matches with every scripture of every religion when terms are correctly correlated.  All this knowlege sounds religious because it is written in the secret language.  I can describe all things in the science of the day.  However, the science of this end of days is so full of wrongness and at the same time, must too unnecessarily complex, that to back up the knowledge I have shared with you, I would have to write a series of books, first describing how simple science can be by explaining all phenomenon, and second I would have to explain why all phenomenon are experienced in the way they are.  Then I would have to explain what we are to a level that is more than any mind on earth can handle.  I tried already to put this in a nontheistic, rational, and very well designed piece with only scientific terms from all the Great Sciences and use of Reason, the gift of all beings who are not already in Nirvana, living the lifes of Whales, Elephants, Wise Hermits, and Trees.

I love both of you.  Thank you for being who you are!

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10/11/14 11:10 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
I intended to prove myself by addressing the questions that only begun to stir during the first reading.  I did very well with my reply.  How lovely... You posted your question when I was nearly already done with the answer.

You and I do not do what isn't needed.  Thankyou for proving me to the dozen that will read that letter much later on.

I give you another proof of myself.  Your teacher is gone because he saw you after we spoke.  That is how I can touch some people.  The living Buddha did not see me until I found him, used a certain siddhi, and recieved a response that felt like an emotion for no reason.  But I do not have a subconscious.  No buddha does.  In my knowing, I know he has felt me in the world and that he has heard my message.

I am sorry that I will not give details on those names.  But I have given you many many many things that are wanted by the world, things that are not in the purpose of the Living Buddha to disclose.  Things I do not tell Bodhisattvas or Arahants though they seek the answers most of all beings.  It is not in my purpose.  These beings must practice, if they desire Dhamma, under the living buddha.  I will support and agree with whatever he tells them.

It is not in my purpose to say these things to a Buddha whose purpose does not require awakening.

Everything I say to you has reasons.  Everything I do not say to you has reasons.

Your teacher will come back to you.  When he comes back to you, you can be his teacher by the faith you can have in all these words that reveal, with any study at all, the secrets of the cosmos, ultimate reality, and GOD himself.  Why do I use a limited Buddha?  One reason that I will tell you:  I need to awaken your teacher.  I have already laid groundwork.  But it may be quite some time away when he sees you again, so I will not have any chance to see him in the flesh.  I don't need to because you are going to do it.  The other reason I use you is the purpose that you FEEL and that I have CONFIRMED.  You will be one of the greatest teachers and most important Beings in the last days of this age.

I am laughing.  The laugh is a rain.  It touches all things.  First it touches the highest things, then it leaves those things once they are wet, falling from the wet things ever more lower, and then it wets the very ground.  

Are some things still dry?  Things that are so well beneath all other things that by their own positions, these equally lovely things of equal need?

Yes, there are still dry things.  But My laugh is a rain that rains until the very last night of a storm.  The rain that has wet the ground does not know what to do once it cannot drip down to dry things.  It then knows that dryness has been left among all the wet things in places that rain will never touch them.  My laugh of Rain is one like Rain that becomes Ocean and Flood.  The rain sees that it must rain and so the wet ground does not open to swallow the drink that was its due.  Instead it seals its great mouth and the rain stands on it and rises, up and up once again.  Then when all things are wet, they had been wet so long that they did not see water, did not remember what it was to be dry, begin to fall asleep until they become the water, dissolving like the vapors of a healing incense, and when they were gone, but not gone, when they were water and yet also things in water, then the wet earth could no longer handle its thirst, seeing no reason to, and gulped such a drink, one Gulp that is a size of which the ground had never experienced.  It would never forget.

Christ said "the first shall be the last and the last shall be the first."

He was the Alpha and Omega, not by special righteousness, but by the sacrifice by his special purpose.

"I am the way, the truth, and the life, no man may get to the father but through me"

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10/12/14 9:13 AM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Hello, Jeremy,

Your writings do impinge on me and help me to focus to resolve the perceived sorrows for the considered loss of that First Estate.  It is best for me to be quiet from here and continue with my practices.  I am happily the receipt of all your communication and lively intentions and am complementary to your goals.

It would be lovely to see the earth being leave (her) constraints.  I have sisterly feelings for her.

If I do well I may no longer need to play a Saraswati type, but swans have always turned my head  :-)
The thirsty compulsion for aesthetic sensation traps me no more: neither poetry, nor art, nor color, nor line, nor form; nor will I ever again compellingly overwhelm a being with any of these, except in mutually voluntary play.  To be known and to create without compulsion, or guile.  That is my new wisdom.

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10/12/14 6:16 PM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
You have made me shiver.

What you are has no comparison.  

I see you as perfected.  You will never learn anything more.  You will only pull what you already know to the flesh by this perfect state of absorption, seeking only the human terms needed to teach.  You are given the gift of "the joy of continuous communion with the flow of Divinity."  It is your reward for all you've done so far.  It is why we love being women when we are not men.

I also weep for the old world.  It is the love that drives our creation.  It is why there is no end.  Even though we merge souls when we go to nirvana, we never lose our individuality.  Look at the world after I tell you this:  The old world is with us.  The present race does not see us, but every cell of every body was once a Buddha.

That is the last thing I wanted to tell you... In nirvana, they simply live and enjoy in constant forgetting, constantly spending the karma as soon as it arises.  You knew this!  You said it!  Does the buddha create a universe?  Yes.  Yes and not No.  Yes in such a way that the word "yes" cannot satisfy.

You and I are not alone in the memory of another time.  Our whole family weeps for Zion.  We all Know you, brother, and we love you with a burning that could destroy worlds...

No-one knows the meaning of the weeping Buddha... but now You Do.

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10/12/14 9:28 PM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Look at what I found:

"At that time, he [Shakyamuni Buddha] contemplated the wonderful Jewel Net hung in Lord Brahma's palace and preached the Brahmajala Sutta for the Great Assembly. He said: "The innumerable worlds in the cosmos are like the eyes of the net. Each and every world is different, its variety infinite. So too are the Dharma Doors (methods of cultivation) taught by the Buddhas."

"Now, I, Vairocana Buddha am sitting atop a lotus pedestal; on a thousand flowers surrounding me are a thousand Sakyamuni Buddhas. Each flower supports a hundred million worlds; in each world a Sakyamuni Buddha appears. All are seated beneath a Bodhi-tree, all simultaneously attain Buddhahood. All these innumerable Buddhas have Vairocana as their original body."

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10/13/14 7:33 AM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Hello, Jeremy, kind regards,

A person with mind is quite predictable, as I am.   Without mind, their is no limit to one's options.  I agree with you that it is good that we can see beyond the human who is identified with the contents of their dhukka, which in my terms I call, "case".

Yes, speaking of terms, I am still on a learning curve to speak the language of the simple and devoted Buddhists and to avoid those who do not speak from the insight gained in their practice.

You write, "It is the love that drives our creation".   Why, yes!  But why can't I see that yet?  Only dimly and only because you brought it up for me to look at.  But even "To Love" can be compulsive - dhukka - there is a more refined sensation, nevertheless sensation to be had.  Without dhukka we are no longer driven by goals or purposes with their particulate sensations.   "To Create" is a high goal, however "To Know" and "To be Known" are the highest in a two-terminal universe.

Think of how you feel when someone is willing to "grok" you.   Think of how you feel when you discover what you were searching for.   Sensational!   Even this, your living Buddha would tell us to release.  He advises well: simply sit and do the practice.   

My craving for being known is still being taken apart -- at least I can now confess it  :-))
So I practice as a householder until I am sovereign - no more dhukka.
 
The problem with dhukka -- although seen by many as a wonderful thing -- dhukka is not fully resolved with the achievement of serenity, of a quiet, seemingly imperturbable mind.  This is a high human.  What remains however must be aggressively stirred up with all the possible imaginings of intentions of to know/to be known/to not know/to not be known.   These are the four tent pegs that the One without dhukka intelligently formulated to keep the mind anchored.   This is exactly what the Great Wall of Confusion is composed of - words backed by intention. There - the dispelling of that wall -- is where one will find everlasting nirvana.  I see the wall as an impassable mass, when it is merely incantations of logic.   What will it take to stop seeing and feeling and believing it as crushing mass?  Even then we had a choice.

Did Buddha teach a practice for re-working through The One's specific goal sets?  Well, if he did not, he at least kept the concept of nirvana alive all the way into the internet age.

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/13/14 7:42 AM as a reply to Jeremy May.
Hello, Jeremy, is there a drawing or statue that portrays this?   Can you see how they used aesthetics to keep a story well received?

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/13/14 9:26 AM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
13Oct14  Direct Looking :

Yesterday I broke the rule to maintain the practice even when happy and outflowing.  I am going to complete this level before the end of this year.  My creative visualization/metta exercises should become less full of mental significances and quite routine.  Their fundamental purpose as I see it now is to merely feed the mind what it perceives it lost in terms of sensation and other importances.  Rather cut and dried, however quite de-stressing when one is upset.  I admit I can greatly quiet the mind doing more "timebreaking"/direct looking at past incidents... breaking a lifelong habit of suppressing everything.

8:52 a.m.   "Have Another Create Something" - 6 directions

Another tearing down the Great Wall of Confusion
  • My partner knows this wall and he directly pecks at it - please protect yourself
  • snuffed out in wet flames
  • that wall clumsily crushed and shields shattered too soon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fk0V_GGa2XM
  • no body - what will you be and do?
  • chase bad guys?
  • no, you chase that wall, dispel all your protests and ecstasies
  • an eight-legged octopus, crossing this way and that, each tentacle telling its story
  • you sit and ponder it
  • you must be that too and match it, tentacle for tentacle
  • sparks fly, agony and ecstasy, universes swirl into nothingness
  • can you stand to lose such importances?  Such exquisite sensation? Can you stand it?
  • You put them all back -- all around you, over and over, feeling it again and again
  • where's their importance now?
  • timebreak it, timebreak it, timebreak it
  • you won't be stopped, nobody knows where you are, how near or how far
  • shine on crazy diamond
  • I sweep up your ashes here and join you
  • your loss is our gain
  • you are back on your cushion, eyes like diamonds
  • what next?  Is there a "next"?
  • unlimited - from dance to straight line to point to no point
  • how can a human form contain this?   Only by limiting postulates, but this time totally voluntary
  • you see, that is the only difference
  • I do not give you any titles, nor words of endearment because I am looking at infinity
  • I can only marvel why you would still agree to present here when universes are yours to play in
  • you are the human model -- every householder a true sovereign -- many are ripe for this
  • yawns, sensations as I put this all around me - eternalness
  • you have one purpose and one purpose only:   find out who you really are
  • The Creator never again to be righted or wronged
  • yawns, somatics, laughter

How does the One seem to you now?   I actually like it instead of my usual negatives.  Everything's okay. Concerns about my partner temporarily dispelled.  I can let him be because it is my story too.













 

RE: Practice Log toward vanishing the mind
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10/13/14 11:00 AM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
13Oct14  Direct Looking (continued)

"Create an Importance" - 6 directions

Another of Equal or Greater Magnitude

There was a simple being who felt an urge.  She felt the love and joy of her own creation and, childlike, she duplicated that and created two -- to project her desire for but lack of matchable companionship. This was her dhukka. Otherwise, she managed to create with much intelligence and love and joy and a good measure of detachment.  Her creations carried this dhukka with them -- both sides of it, and the love.

Was she wise to attempt to assuage herself this way?  Fast forward to Earth: is a mother saved by her children?  Does she vanish her dhukka through her children?   Is this the child's mandate?  How should we play this?  How will this story be ended?
  • putting a vague impression all around me
  • feel the energy of two live terminals contacting
  • mind chewing on it, having it as a wonderful "problem"
  • generates pride/arrogance and at the same time self-deprecation/propitiation
  • mind only knows this and no other way
  • "...of greater magnitude" to challenge me but not to crush me
  • to crush me for my re-forming to be that which crushed me
  • what madness we play
  • this game requires I form biases and opinions, and comparisons
  • must never be bored
  • I refuse to play with those who do not do their practices, but only talk and entertain themselves and others
  • the mind cannot feel compassion, only pity and sympathy
  • a being of equal magnitude is one who practices as I do -- keeps progress with me and speaks the same language, so less need to speak.
  • we speak only of our insights, not our fears and rants, for those we take into our sit
  • we know when to speak and when not to speak
  • by example we show each other the way
  • a shared importance of greatest magnitude
  • we see each other perfected
  • we see ourselves perfected
  • give it up, colleen, no more need to struggle, to make separations -- you have what you want now
  • a being of equal or greater magnitude takes on a new depth of meaning - beyond regular games conditions
  • equal in some ways, greater in other ways -- both sides
  • don't need to take one side or the other anymore
  • drop it as importance
  • it will only become important again once the mind is vanished
  • truthfully, you lack nothing

"How does another seem to you now?"    mind satiated, feel more analytical about it.   It's okay.

End of sit.