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RE: doable energy practice
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8/14/14 5:49 PM as a reply to Rist Ei.
Hello, Rist, kind regards.

I am new on this forum and I am still reading the practice logs.   

You wrote this:  
but at the same time that impure mind is also my real mind.

I'm having a hard time seeing how this could be true unless we have different definitions of what is "impure". mind and what is "real" mind.  Do you make a differentiation between a compulsive sensational mind and an non-compulsive analytical mind?

As I said, I still need to read your logs and perhaps I would understand better.

Colleen

RE: doable energy practice
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8/15/14 10:29 AM as a reply to Colleen Karalee Peltomaa.
Hei Colleen,

Do you make a differentiation between a compulsive sensational mind and an non-compulsive analytical mind?
I think yes,
compulsionthe action or state of forcing or being forced to do something

If mental mind can tame the heart what is tormented by urges then can spot the signal or a hook and can unattach from it.

real mind- what constitutes reality. But my own view(mental mind) on what reality is is defiled or impure also my heart is impure thus how i experience it is wrong because its influenced by other minds(urges).
My impure mind is real mind since i don't have any other variant to know reality. 

ty


RE: doable energy practice
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9/9/14 3:26 PM as a reply to Rist Ei.
Haven't meditated long hours for 10 days already, life is too busy currently. Im thinking about quiting life issues like working to get back meditating full time. Currently i can only have cessations and then prolong them as long possible, since business i am getting only couple during the day.

June, july, august, got i think three rememberable bt's. First time i xp'd bliss what is better than "O". Have always wondered what people tell that there is bliss million times better than "that" but fail to give a description. This xp is not compareable to "that", it does not have bad taste afterwards like you have killed someone . It felt extremely pure and its timeless, quality what you have after cessation. It was similar like letting go of the mind object what you have hold long time in subconsciousness but it was much better. After that i knew why body is told to be very precious.

discoveries:
there is something better than having a partner, unimaginable but its real.

second thing: dealing with energy circuits in mind and body. Got realization and unlocked deeper way to meditate, life changed one day after that and i can't meditate, it drives me nuts.

When i am near breakthrough then last step is to let go of wrong thinking or the thing what i am holding, it is producing vibrations, tingling, bubbling in lower abdomen, +suffering/nerves at the edges. After i let go then all symptoms also disappear and it feels normal and ordinary but what gained is deeper level samadhi or relaxation with its new gifts, everything gets better.

RE: doable energy practice
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9/18/14 8:10 AM as a reply to Rist Ei.
3 days later quited work, suffering started to grow too big. Suffering was created by myself as always, what i today resolved. Everything back to normal, might want to go back to work just to discover next week another breakdown? No.

All cravings are back in full force! my mind became purer i think, what made things more attractive and beautiful.

Meditation was cessation and then climbing to the maximum,previous level of understanding and doing it(dwelling there, rinse and repeat) till there was lots of suffering to the point i finally figured it out what caused it or other words what caused me not to progress or realize next level.
It was my desire to succeed in life(i name this this way) and become someone(i have solved it before but it comes back in different levels, so i never recognize it) this desire was sneaky and i didn't recoqnize that it was the issue. I was ignoring what i have and was clinging to what it should be.
As always it was simple issue but not simple to crack and the result is very good. Have now more faith not to quit halfway and to remember that after it solved its good thing. 

I think it was intermediate state, suffering level was top 3 on badness scale. 

RE: doable energy practice
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10/6/14 8:30 AM as a reply to Rist Ei.
had a cultivation result at the end of the august or something this year. Black sphere rised from the bottom. It was second of this type. Also noticed when i am cultivating "lower area"(i think its jing to chi cultivation) now i feel lower abdomen too, before only perineum area.

I think i have opened with this, second chakra. 
Path attainments and chakras correlate, reading the descriptions of the chakras and fetters model etc.

I think sensual craving correlates with jing/essence recovery level. At least its said in Taoist yoga that vitality will be restored to the level we had at child age.

Second chakra is 2nd path. 

first path: 1/3 of first path is here http://www.dharmaoverground.org/web/guest/discussion/-/message_boards/message/4476085

everything starts to make more sense and previous claims were part of the bigger stuff what got smaller after cultivation progressing.
it seems that to open a chakra there is needed 3X3 openings within it. Within one opening there is cultivation of jing to chi to shen.

Current guess is that i have opened second chakra and working with the third.

RE: doable energy practice
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10/14/14 6:30 AM as a reply to Rist Ei.
had a breakthrough(6 days back), no idea how to describe it properly, or name it. Basically it wiped out everything i thought about myself and universe. Need to start figuring again.
More power and clarity. Better techniques and skills. Better insights. 
I think i am repeating myself here, no point to continue writing down stuff, it gets wiped out after breakthrough.

Gem is this that i need to come up with the same things by myself what is written down in Vedas or Holy Bible or Suttas and comprehend fully alchemy texts and if they are lost i could recreate them from my own findings in myself.

RE: doable energy practice
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10/14/14 10:27 AM as a reply to Rist Ei.
I look forward to having that ability to know whatever is here to be known -- only I might not care anymore, goal-less.