| | Haven't meditated long hours for 10 days already, life is too busy currently. Im thinking about quiting life issues like working to get back meditating full time. Currently i can only have cessations and then prolong them as long possible, since business i am getting only couple during the day.
June, july, august, got i think three rememberable bt's. First time i xp'd bliss what is better than "O". Have always wondered what people tell that there is bliss million times better than "that" but fail to give a description. This xp is not compareable to "that", it does not have bad taste afterwards like you have killed someone . It felt extremely pure and its timeless, quality what you have after cessation. It was similar like letting go of the mind object what you have hold long time in subconsciousness but it was much better. After that i knew why body is told to be very precious.
discoveries: there is something better than having a partner, unimaginable but its real.
second thing: dealing with energy circuits in mind and body. Got realization and unlocked deeper way to meditate, life changed one day after that and i can't meditate, it drives me nuts.
When i am near breakthrough then last step is to let go of wrong thinking or the thing what i am holding, it is producing vibrations, tingling, bubbling in lower abdomen, +suffering/nerves at the edges. After i let go then all symptoms also disappear and it feels normal and ordinary but what gained is deeper level samadhi or relaxation with its new gifts, everything gets better. |