| | I have just started practice in the past few months, no retreats, no teacher and no local sangha. I'm almost done with Daniel's book. I've started a personal meditation journal over at wordpress (linked through my profile page, set to private, only wordpress members can view after being invited) to track where I'm at. Since I'm new at the whole map thing, I figured I'd post my first sitting because I'm not sure where I fit on the map.
Here is my first entry:
May 26th, 2009
Time: 1545 to 1605 hrs. (20 minute session)
Sitting meditation, cross-legged style on cushion, blankets under knees for stability. Began noting breath. Middle-end of breath most intense. After a few minutes noted middle left back pain (vibrating at 15-20 cycles per second). Body became “heavy”, ability to hold posture of sitting upright more labored, felt very relaxed, labored to breath in after each exhalation. After a few more minutes saw flickering/strobing of lights behind eyelids, saw white jagged ’sun’, radiating circle lines around sun, saw fractal shapes in rainbow colors, predominantly blue/green (some purple). Few more minutes ‘body’ disappeared with ‘mind’ left, beginning of exhalation intense, strong emotions of shame/guilt (where is it coming from, but didn’t explore, just noted emotion), few minutes later strong sense of no-knower knowing, but still strong sense of self present, felt ’roundness’ of upper chest, especially during inhalation. At end of session, opened eyes and strong sense of ‘what is just is’, weird sensation of coolness on right shoulder, upper right arm, and right pectoral. Didn’t experience drowsiness during session, hardly any back noise in mind. Session was over too quickly, felt should have sat a lot longer as if I was just beginning. |