zhi lin:
Ideally i would like someone to tell me: "do this A twice a day. when you achieve this, move one to doing B twice a day.
Hm, the best I can come up with is, ask yourself "what do I want?" and write down what comes up. If you want clarity, maybe asking "what do I know?", even though you feel confused, can give you hints, and you can watch this video on enlightenment and true will http://openenlightenment.org/?p=514 as in my experience true will is essential to living a fulfilled life.
When you better know what you want, it's easier to provide you with help. till then, smile at yourself (in a mirror) 10 times daily for at least 3 seconds each time the best you can (seriously).