So for the past 6 months or so I have been getting this sense of been filled with love, it feels unconditional and even has a smell and texture to it.  I get a visual/auditory sense of what people in my life are doing and some of this proves itself to be true.  At the same time I am also filled with a profound reactivity and have not had any motivation to practice since I left a 1 month retreat a year ago.  Meditation got to poit where it felt like it increased my reactivity and I find sitting extremely difficult unless I listen to the heart sutra. Any suggestion as to what is going on much appreciated.