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About my recent story

I've been on a two week holiday, and while I've not been practicing a lot, I have been doing a lot of noting, relaxing, etc.

One thing that happened was that after two days, with a lot of time with nothing to do (I did do a lot of reading), I reached AP (arising and passing away).
It was pretty different from others APs (maybe because I was on a holiday and not a retreat).

It was really delightful and joyful, but what really impressed me was that I was able to "solidify" stories and visualizations in a way that I couldn't before.
I could lay in bed, create a visualization world based on an idea, and add lots of things, refining it, detail by detail.
Of course, I did a lot of noting of the whole thing.

I definitely couldn't do this before, maybe because visualizations and thoughts were interrupted by body sensations.
After the last shift (that clearly remains by the way), body sensations have completely detached somehow from "awareness". It seemed like some kind of "fog" has dissappeared.

Another thing that happened is that, some days after, while lying in bed before going to sleep, I decided to meditate.
I started noticing the breath, and then started cycling, stage after stage up to equanimity. There I resolved to attain a fruition. It didn't happen. The mind went to some "nothingness" state.
So, I tried again, this time, concentrating to the first jhana and moving up to fourth. Some kind of relaxing happened and then, nothing (my guess is near miss).
Long story short, I kept trying (I don't know for how long, maybe 15 minutes but they seemed a lot more, like an hour) and after some time the mind relaxed without shifting and then boom, fruition (discontinuity) and afterglow. I opened my eyes and checked the afterglow to be sure, and then went to sleep.

This fruition was different that the ones after the shift in the retreat. Those ones were like a natural continuation of EQ and pretty effortless. This felt more like a lot of work (a LOT more).

Finally, another thing to report is that I had an spectacular AP a few days ago.
Things were really bright and colorful, attention really tuned to joyful details. Also it was more "spaceful" and relaxed that others AP.
My memory is not that good, but I don't remember having an AP so "enjoyable".

So, I claim AP of the new path (and a new ability to create visualization mental "worlds" out of thin air) and attaining a fruition, not on retreat and with little setup.

It may not seem like much of a claim, but I've been trying to get a fruition in daily life for a long time. And the visualization thing was really impressive for me.

That said, I haven't been trying so hard to get a fruition or cycle. These days I tend to let things flow (which sometimes looks like indifference to everything and is clearly not a good thing). I'm also about to finish reading mctb2.

About my practice, what I usually try to do is:

- Trying to relax and feel some compassion for whatever my mind is doing to create the illusion of duality all the time (to the point of altering all my reality that way). Trying to notice the "effort" of the whole thing. Also trying to push or at least try the idea that it can be done, that while difficult it can be done and should be done.

- Trying to find and notice what solidity, continuity, refuge, self and other things are left in sensations, intentions, etc.

Basically, this two, done fast, really fast. Naturally, some curiosity of what is there, what is really going on, happens.

My guess is that when the mind speeds up, as I'm in AP, if I keep doing it, I'll cross the AP event.
This is a low AP (the first AP in the cycle), but still, something is something emoticon.