A Log

Kev in, modified 2 Years ago at 3/1/21 7:03 PM
Created 2 Years ago at 2/20/21 9:39 PM

A Log

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A Log
George S, modified 2 Years ago at 2/20/21 11:11 PM
Created 2 Years ago at 2/20/21 10:55 PM

RE: A Log

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Hi Kevin,

Welcome to the DhO! Thanks for sharing openly your journey thus far. The main thing in your post which jumped out at me is this:

I feel spirituality is something I've largely blocked out over the last year with a focus instead on striving hopelessly, thinking that if I can just accomplish something, I will be happy, and I will get approval from my parents.

The need to gain their parents' approval is something which is imprinted deeply in children when the parents use them to meet their own emotional needs and expectations, rather than accepting them for how they are. It's great that you already recognize it is pushing you into hopeless striving for things which won't bring any lasting happiness or fulfillment. Many people spend their entire lives driven miserably by this need without ever realizing it. If you are interested in a deeper understanding of this important topic then I would recommend Alice Miller's The Drama Of The Gifted Child and John Bradshaw's Homecoming - Reclaiming and Healing Your Inner Child

Best Wishes,
Sam Gentile, modified 2 Years ago at 2/25/21 12:06 PM
Created 2 Years ago at 2/25/21 12:06 PM

RE: A Log

Posts: 1347 Join Date: 5/4/20 Recent Posts
Hi, welcome to DhO!

I was struck by
The truth is, no matter how much uncontrollable thought is flowing through my head, I'm able to predictably enter "access concentration" and remove my slavery to thought.

That is amazing! I'm focusing a lot on my Concentration too and it just led up to my 2nd A+P. I think it's a powerfull base.,