RE: anything and everything

emily keegan, modified 4 Months ago at 1/9/22 4:11 AM
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anything and everything

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a vast, billowing profusion of gnarled shape and biological form.
filling your whole body, vast space, feeling wonder that you do not explode.³
a body which is obese and thin as a skeleton, thin as twigs at the same time.
a field of rot and screaming which is the same phenomenon as a still field of calm blankness.¹
this being present makes it clear that all words i use, all specific thoughts, are violent bindings of ignoring this underlying nature of mind.
when i go about my day and feel my lips, my hands, my eyes, i cut off almost everything which exists.
the words i know are a tragedy, or even a betrayal of reality.

the suddenness of this - i did not mean for this to happen when i lay down tonight - of course, i mean, of course, i grieve to have said anything at all.
i've always wanted to study mathematics but i haven't any idea how i could find my way to mathematics from this and if it was math in the normal way what would be the point? ²

¹ a warm smoothness. feeling this perspective alongside that rapidly churning infinity and feeling like they are representing something which is the same
² rhetorical question
³ only relatively mildly distracted by such fearful thoughts due to a series of experiences with not exploding

what- experience? what? please what, i could use some what. i mean it feels obviously vile and depraved to go about trying to use, ugh, abstraction to do anything but in light of this i could still use some what, please. yall have these lingual frameworks and i have familiarity with some of them, a handful of years meditating with mctb in context, etc
Dan Latner, modified 4 Months ago at 1/9/22 3:06 PM
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RE: anything and everything

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"when i go about my day and feel my lips, my hands, my eyes, i cut off almost everything which exists."

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J W, modified 4 Months ago at 1/9/22 5:30 PM
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RE: anything and everything

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Ineffabiliteas - the teas that leave you speechless!

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Dan Latner, modified 4 Months ago at 1/9/22 6:06 PM
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Maybe that had more spice than I intended... that was all meant in fun and commiseration. Not trolling or triggered! Exteroception was especially sincere.
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J W, modified 4 Months ago at 1/9/22 8:56 PM
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I know emoticon
emily keegan, modified 4 Months ago at 1/10/22 12:09 AM
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RE: anything and everything

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i keep reading this and cackling, you got me right in the rofl