RE: Tunnels, lights, figures in meditation during first retreat

Ashley Stewart, modified 2 Months ago at 4/29/22 11:41 AM
Created 2 Months ago at 4/29/22 11:41 AM

Tunnels, lights, figures in meditation during first retreat

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I went on my first 10-day Goenka sponsored retreat last month after starting breath focused meditation 2 years ago. I have been attempting to attain Jhana with only modest results. on a good day I can maybe get into low first Jhana I think. During the retreat I learned the vipassana via the body scanning method and had strong insight resulting in stream entry. this is not what I am curious about however. a day or two later I decided to try out concentration practices just to see what I could do since my focus was ramped up to such a high level that I was getting flashing light nimmita even outside of meditation. I briefly focused on a black Pebble set on a white cushion to gain quicker concentration, a no no for the center, but I felt it would help. during the session I saw what look like a light at the end of a tunnel with rings of light telescoping down towards it as if I were backing into a hillside tunnel. then the focus ring of light and eventually the entire tunnel became moving kaleidoscopic colors and patterns while maintaining the same form. eventually the kaleidoscopic tunnel resolved back into a central white circle with a seated figure and meditation. the figure looked a bit like glass in front of a bright light as it was entirely translucent. the tunnel remained kaleidoscopic leading down to that focal point. during this experience I was the most equanimous I have ever been in my life, none of it seem to matter whatsoever though it is a feat I would dearly like to replicate now. in fact eventually the ache in my backside caused me to abandon the concentration and wander outside to practice vipassana in the strong Sun and cold wind. So....What was That? did I manage to send myself far into the Jhanas? I think the equanimity stressed on the Goenka retreats had something to do with assisting the Jhana even though I was told flatly to stay away from them as they were dangerous. Please help, I am practicing alone and often founder on simple missteps a teacher would know to avoid. I sit daily for at least 45 minutes usually focused on breath sometimes on a circular Kasina. Thanks in advance.
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Linda ”Polly Ester” Ö, modified 2 Months ago at 4/29/22 12:32 PM
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RE: Tunnels, lights, figures in meditation during first retreat

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Hi Ashley, and welcome to this forum! I hope you will like it here.

It does sound like jhanic territory, and a very cool experience at that. It doesn't sound dangerous to me. 

Vision seems to be a strong doorway for you. From where I stand, it sounds like something you might want to experiment with more. It probably wouldn't be a good idea to be open about that to the Goenka organization, though, if you wish to go for more retreats there, as they reserve continuous teachings for practicioners solely devoted to their methods. 

Personally, I think that discarding jhanas as dangerous is nonsense. Sure, eventually practicioners need to let go of attachment to jhanas, just like other attachments, but the most of us aren't there yet. Jhanas can be very helpful for getting there. Some even say that you can't get there without them. I wouldn't go that far. I think it makes sense to lead with one's strength. You seem to have knack for concentration. I see no reason to restrain yourself for practicing something that comes naturally to you and that doesn't harm anyone. 

​​​​​​​If you do worry about harm for some reason, you could always start your sessions with the Brahmaviharas and end with dedicating the benefit to the liberation and wellbeing of all beings. 

Best wishes for your practice and wellbeing! 
Ashley Stewart, modified 2 Months ago at 4/29/22 2:00 PM
Created 2 Months ago at 4/29/22 2:00 PM

RE: Tunnels, lights, figures in meditation during first retreat

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Thanks for the support. I have noticed that visual meditation objects like my painted Kasina are much more active and engaging as compared for waiting on the motion of breath , perhaps it's just my ADD. I am not terribly concerned about their fear of concentration states. I would like to learn how to replicate those very strong results during my daily practice and I'm looking for good advice there. I've read Leigh Brasington and other works on Jhana but I struggle with it during daily practice. when I get tingling bursts of what I identify as Piti. I am unable to shift my concentration to them as they fade away rapidly. if I ignore them they seem to just go away and not come back. I don't know what I am doing wrong other than perhaps wanting it too much there seems to be a fine line to walk for equanimity that is engaged. 
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Linda ”Polly Ester” Ö, modified 2 Months ago at 4/29/22 2:48 PM
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RE: Tunnels, lights, figures in meditation during first retreat

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Try staying with your meditation object as your main focus while also keeping the joy and pleasantness of the tinglings in your awareness. Eventually the figure and ground will probably shift as the jhanic factors grow stronger. When that happens, let them. 

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