God knows what log number is now...I've done so many lol. Anyways, my plan is to re-amp my mahasi noting practice in order to attain stream entry someday. Hopefully some of you can help me out when I am in need, and hopefully some of you can find some source of inspiration or insight from this log. 

​​​​​​​Love LJ

September 23/09/2022:

1st sit of the day: 45 minutes of freestlye noting out loud

For this meditation, I opened up a simple kasina image on my computer screen (white circle with a black background) and stared at it whilst I was noting sensations out loud in order to develop some concentration/absorption whilst noting the other sensory events.

This sit was filled with utter aversion, it felt as if every single sensation in my experience was awful to look at and I was in constant physical pain with my lower back as well as mental agony. At some points I would ask myself "Who is it that is dissatisfied with this current moment?" in order to try and bring about the annata characteristic and give myself some motivation. I managed to finish the entire 45 minutes noting around 1-2 sensations every 1 or 2 seconds, but bloody hell it was agonising!

25/09/2022:

Didn't meditate at all yesterday, but just managed to sit for an hour. Started with 20 minutes of shamatha; labelling the begginning, middle, and end of each in and out breath. Went pretty well actually, was smiling through it because i heard from someone on youtube that it helps develop pleasant sensations to focus on in order to enter the 1st jhana. Anyways...no jhana this time but i dont really care lol, I did at one point move from the breath and focused on the vibratory sensations within my hands which were cupped together, felt like very quick buzzing sensations. Then the interval timer went off and I finished with noting. Nothing special but hey ho thats the name of this game. 

LJ out